I know, my text is not in the "program", please forgive me, I just want people who want to write procedures. Close to them. Here is a completely strange territory for me. For such a strange, I am also a positive curious. I have to know how much this is, I can still be with "active". I know that there is a group of people here, they have a fresh life and love. All this, is a luxury for me, for this, I am full of respect for them. There is a lot of effort here. So, please allow me to break into. Today, I feel so poverty and hopeless in my presence of realistic love. I lost keen tactile, perception, and feel, I don't know how to go through the next thirty years. In this process of cultivation, I can't live loneliness. Buddha said: Life can't be too persistent. This is so simple and pleasant, but no matter how I do psychological hints, I still can't forgive all everything happened. And everything is refused to let go. I have torture yourself and people around me. When winter is coming again, my hopes still have no traces. I am always in the nostalgic sky, after filtering all the mediocrity, the rest is the endless self-blame and miss. What is your nostalgia when you are coming in winter? I want to tell you, how much I miss back to the mother's belly! My life is not worthy of "program"!
