A few years ago, when I confirmed my development direction, the three steps gave to myself were: software programming, software design, software engineering. As I am getting closer to the established goals, I have an anxiety that plasmunicates my worries.
I remember a regular software project that started two years ago. I am a programmer. The project gradually got a big tree like a seed. According to the reason, seeing such a result should have some achievements or It is proud. But I felt an anxiety, what exactly in the project? Modern scientific software management allows software development into a "software factory", where people are like a hypnotized robot, I am defined as a part, a resource, and relying on others' scheduling and placing. There is no idea, mechanically performing a process and work that has been arranged by others, and my thoughts and claims are fully formatted to specify a narrow frame. I am totally a "slave", I began to doubt the so-called software engineering.
Later, I gradually grow up, and became a project manager. For a while, I started to engage in three projects, a project in system analysis, one project, project management, a project to serve before the project is responsible. Also want to study computer game technology with a friend. In the first project, there are two programmers to receive my analysis results, I write the detailed design of the system analysis to flow charts and pseudo code, they are responsible for realization, I am responsible for explaining. In the second project, I have five people for me to provide, in the early days, I assigned two people to do demand research, and the other three people do technical preparation, after the demand is determined, I assigned a person to explain the demand, I and another People who need demand do data models and detailed designs, and the three people have begun to prepare for technical environment and foundation frameworks, and everything is in accordance with the implementation of software engineering, documentation and programs have appeared, everything is in progress.
This is the greatest work in my strength. Every day I have to work until three in the morning, I have to get up at 8 o'clock next day. After two months of continuous, whenever I see those people like me, I have a sense of liability, what do I do? They are living people, but they have been changed by me, a machine. And I became "slave owner".
I started to say to myself with politiciary: "Be a good software, you have to do this, put away your sympathy, reality." But I can't stop confusion, start self-employment, is this the software engineering I want? ISO-9000, CMM, institutions learned when they have to treat people as a resource, one component, one machine? In the past six months, I often have troubled this problem, which is the system of slave owners and slaves, I suspect that I live in the historical rule of social.
Two weeks ago, a good friend recommended a book, I still remember this book from the express delivery company that morning, I will open it, but I can't stop, I have seen three more midnight. Because I am anxious, I have doubtful, I have been solved in this book. Is it true that I really know what I am thinking?
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