September 1
Today is the day of school. The campus is like a festive atmosphere. Two months didn't see, the students were kind and enthusiastic with each other. They greet, hug, joy, and celebrate the reunion in their respective ways. "Oh, how can you become this appearance, black and thin, become a little old man!" Someone asked me in this way, it is the fifth person. I turned back, it is strong, we are "Coolo". His white face reveals the healthy redness, my thin body is standing with him, even I feel very uncoordinated. "I wandered two months on the street." I replied. Strongly listened. I laughed, my heart bitter. Really wandering! Two months of summer vacation, I have done a tutor, do selling, helping work in the restaurant, I can't be black and thin. All this is to earn a tuition! Those who have not worried, not to worry about the tuition, just want to borrow a summer holiday, "exercise", if there is this experience, they should be satisfied. But I am me, I know clearly, I want to make money, make money, and make money. I want to make money to pay tuition, make money to support myself. Go to his "exercise", no money, no qualification, "exercise"!
However, my two months earned only two months of living expenses. Tuition fee? Half a month ago, I gave my family to my family and I haven't echo. In fact, everything is expected, my poor parents must drag the tired body to seek people, I hope they will be less.
September 3
The counselor is called the words, and urges me to pay tuitions as soon as possible. "I will pay later sooner or later." I am answering like this. After answering, I asked myself: "Can you make it?" I received my father's reply. I feel very kind. I feel very kind. My pity and respectable father, I don't see it for a few months, and I have a few big men on my head. The wrinkles on my face should add a few? In ancient times, I will be 20 years old as "weak crow", indicating that adulthood can live independently. Foreigners are said to support themselves after 18 years of age. I am 20 years old this year, the second grade of the university, but what can I do? I have to pay my life by my parents. I think this, I feel that I am the most useless person in the world. The father said in the letter: This year, this year is affected by the water. It is really unable to pay tuition fees. I will send you a disaster area. I believe that the school will solve it for you ... Father has always had a reverence of the university, always believe in the university is the highest The most selfless place. I also believe that how can schools abandoned a person who can't afford a tuition? But what do I take to pay for tuition? What is it? The father said that there is a disaster area to prove that the school will consider the actual situation to be reduced. Maybe you can, I think. But I don't want to ask for school, I don't want others to know that I have not paid, I don't want others to look at me with a different eye. I don't want it, I really don't want it. I hate the husband, even if it is a good greece. It is said that not to tuition, do not give a diploma after graduation. It is difficult to find a job without a diploma. If you can't find a job, you can't repay your parents. You can't repay your parents will make my conscience are uneasy. Forget it, for myself for my parents, I still put a special difficult application to the school.
September 4th
Last night, I called the father of the child, saying that his child no longer needs a tutor, let me go later. Let me go down, I am sad: I finally lost my last job that could earn some money. what can we do about it? The deduplication of tuition fees have been handed over to the school, but there will be no results in the short term. In addition to finding a job as soon as possible, what can I do? In the morning, I wrote a cardboard with "Tutor", and I started to ride a broken car. I parked the car in people, and took the cardboard at the foot, and then silently expected parents to patronize. People who have come or surprises me or have symptomed me. I have no blushing, I have no heartbeat. I have already suffered too much attention in the summer vacation. I have been used to it. If this endurance can be exchanged for my tuition, what is it? I have been standing like this, waiting until 5 o'clock in the afternoon, I gave me a few inquiors to my dormitory phone number, they said that I gave me a response at night. After returning to school, I can't eat it, I hurriedly sat next to the phone. One minute in one minute, the phone is silent in one minute, and my heart is also a little bit. When I arrived at 10pm, I was completely disappointed. I have worked hard a day, and I hope that the soap bubble is finally broken! September 6th yin
Today, the new report is reported. The large slogan of "warm welcome new classmates" on the school gate is particularly eye-catching. The campus is crowded with a variety of cars. Many freshmen are reported by their father and mother grandparents. They drilled out from the cars one by one, and then "proud proud women" walked to the registration. I hate the feelings of new students who are arrogant, but I can't help but envy them. They are really happy! I can't help but remember the scene of myself to the school. I am a person to school. For a person who has never been away from the distance, the people who are not deeply involved in the world will go to school, really need to spend alone. My parents, my family friends also want to accompany me, but they have no money. On the moment of the train, I clearly saw the eyes of my parents and the eyes of the grandparents and the tears of the grandparents ... The registration was suddenly crying. I walked over and saw a new girl squatted on the ground, and her counselor stood loudly. I also heard a bunch of people who were talking loudly. I heard that they were saying that this woman has been tuned, so I am a hurry. They also stood on a side full of compassion and excitement, her counselor still stood loudly, she was still crying on the ground ... I am squeezing the crowd. A pretty girl glanced at me. "What do you know?" I suddenly screamed. They suddenly became quiet, watching me surprised, just like watching an alien. I said to the counselor: "Let me come, the teacher, I can let her quiet, because I know what she is most hate." I squatted to her: "I just came like you when I just came. Let us avoid these people, I will tell you what to do. "She hoped me, stopping crying, standing. Come on, my dear young teacher, I will tell you how we should survive, how to deal with any endless discussion.
September 8th
In the evening, go to the counselor's home to ask questions to reduce tuition fees. I trusted my trust almost a tear to talk about my own difficulties. The counselor said that you don't want to believe in the school to learn peace, and tell me to write a "repayment plan". Repayment plan? I am secretly laughing. If I have money, I will come to you? If I really pay back, do I have to apply for a trap? Our class, his dad, is a big man, however, I will not ask them to pay for money to pay for a tuition fee? As long as I will give them. "I have a problem in this semester, so I ..." I support my, I feel my best in the world. "No, this is the provisions, you have to write!" The counselor resolutely said. "Even if you have already planned, you have to pay a burn." The counselor added again. Late payment? I suddenly had a impulse to cry and miss. "Anyway, I am a poor two white, let them get better!" I raised the door, there is a little bit of stunning taste. The counselor was very surprised to see me, perhaps he was amazed at the change of my voice. And I actually found a very thorough feeling from his surprised eyes. "No matter what, you have to take it. This is the school stipulates that everyone has to take it." Yes, everyone, I am meditation in my heart. Then I said: I wrote, I will not add trouble to you! The counsetor laughed. I actually laughed with a laugh. September 10th
I am a good student, a very good student. Although I am unable to ensure that this semester has finished paying tuition, I still have written the "Repayment Plan" in accordance with the school, and do a good preparation for intensive gold. Just there is a sorrow of self-deception when I write "Repayment Plan". If I can make a tuition fee according to the plan, how good it is. The squad leader is sending a registered student card. The classmates who have not been sent are in a hurry to ask the squad leader, but they are terrified that the student card is swallowed. I feel funny: Is it less than the student ID card? However, I am wrong. Until all the student cards were all sent, I didn't see me. "What about me?" I asked the squad leader. "Do you have a tuition fee? According to the school, don't give the student ID card." The squad leader is clean and profit. At the eyes of his classmates, I was concentrated in me, and I was full of mercy. I am a sprint. Yeah, I have no tuition fee, I should have no student card. Why didn't I think of this simple truth? Why do you want to be borus? I suddenly envy the leader and those who get the student ID card, they are really happy! Because they have a student ID card, and I don't. I am a student and there is no student card. I will take out the school gate. I should not treat me as a meal, I think I will think.
I was in a latte, someone handed a note: "Life is better than the mirror, you laugh at it, it is also laughing at you; you cry, it's also to cry, why don't you laugh at life? ? "It is the handwriting of the snow! I am moving, snow, thank you for your concern, thank you for your understanding. Have your concern and understand, I will laugh on the mirror of life. I like snow like that, I like it from seeing her first. The elegant long hair is big and a slightly melancholy eye, the show, the delicate figure, and there is no feeling of recognition. I know that she is a person who is dreaming in the dream countless times. However, even this, what can I? Where is I eligible to have the beauty of the snow, the gentleness of the snow? Although Xueger is proximal to me, even though the snow said she likes my simple and kind. However, what is the use of simple and kindness? It can't make romance, manufacturing romance needs money, and I don't. No romantic love is hard to survive in this era, love can't survive, don't you wait for the snow? I think it is very contradictory. I finally didn't take a step forward, I tried to use "friends" to locate me and her relationship. However, I am wrong. I forgot a hopeless love is very easy to get through the lapse of time. That night, when I saw her with a boy, I walked in the campus, my heart was broken. I feel that the world has stopped turning. I stand there, I can't move it, I have a good breath of stinging ... that night, I won't drink many wine. I thought that wine is really a good thing. It can be anesthetic, it can forget the reality, forget my poverty, forget the wound that poverty brings me. Snow, you didn't say that I was like a cloud, and I suddenly had a cloud like a cloud. In fact, you don't understand my heart! Your note, I will collect, your care, I will remember, I will bury your heart, as a reason why I will never hurt forever. September 11th
In the morning, I walked into the classroom and saw the classmates a happy ocean. It turned out to be a monthly life subsidy fee. I am happy, I really need "subsidies" of these tens of dollars. But my share is not sent to me, although I am the most "subsidy." "You have no tuition, this month's subsidy is deducted until you pay for tuition fees." The Life Committee said. My brain is blank. Another tuition! The dead tuition! Why can't I pay tuition? Have a subsidy! The squad leader wrote a notice on the blackboard: Any classmates who have no tuition, apply for specialty students to register. Still register? Is my special difficult application not early? Is the counselor not have a list? Why register under the eyelids of classmates? Don't you let the classmates know that I can't afford to pay for a tuition fee? But what is the matter here? I went to the class leader under the public. The squad leader and a group of people are interested in watching the list of reporters and the reasons for the application. I hate these boring people, how much is their curiosity? I can't help but envy the authority of the squad leader. He is really a lot of wind: because he has mastered the list of people who have not intended tuition fees and the family situation. I hope that he should not talk everywhere, I pray.
September 12th rain
Take a tossing for such a few days, I finally had a saying, and my tuition fees were reduced by one more. Although only one-third, I am still very happy. I will let the family want to send any one-half of them. I have paid a tuition fee, there will be a student ID, a living subsidy, will not live in the eyes of others every day. When I came out from the counselor's office, I thought so, I'm easier. I walked into the classroom and saw a bunch of people around the "post bar". See me, some people quickly greeted me: Congratulations on tuition fees to reduce half! He is very sincere when he speaks, I nodded. On the "post bar", all the list of student who was reducing tuition fees was attacked. Does the counselor are not open? I am angry. The place in front of the place is written in the ground: In order to let more students understand the school's relief policy, increase the transparency of the school policy ... What can I say? I just think, if possible, I would rather return half of the tuition fees, and I don't want to be "outstanding". When I was eating at noon, I just played a long-awaited bicycle ribs, just listened to a classmate and asked: You also eat such expensive dishes? I really thought about it, what happened? I am not being reduced half a tuition fee? Isn't I a specialty student? Is there any right to eat a good dish? Do I have to surveillance? ... September 13th yin clear
Today, I accidentally heard two students in the road: some people didn't afford it, nor is it particularly difficult, but I went to apply for a trap, and I used the money to squander ... Will it be me? I am sensitive. But I am really not a poor! If my family is not affected, I am not my younger, I would rather don't eat, I would rather not buy a book, I will pay first. I don't want myself to become the focus of others because of poverty. I really don't want it. For tuition, after so many emotions, my heart has been very tired. I really want to find a quiet corner, avoid the eyes of everyone, just like a song: Give me a space / no one go / feel you are cold / give me a period of time / no one spent / brave Ground face for loneliness ...
