Sitting in the music like a water-like bar, looking at the affectionate singer, listening to the affectionate song, my heart, I have a pain again. Why sing these sad songs? I picked up the spirits on the bar, I pushed into the mouth, and I burned it in my stomach when I fired a fire. I can't help it. I have a tear.
I have never known that I have such a person who is an emotional person. I like him for many years. Now I have a feeling of being willing to pay for it. I don't care, it is important. It is my side now! I looked at him, almost idiot, usually gazing his horizontal face, a few years, he is still so handsome, wearing a naval uniform, the active officer's male protagonist is as handsome. He watched me, let me always feel that it is in a dream, happiness is not true.
"You are back!" I raised long hair, and I reached out.
"Yeah!" His big hand held my hand, and a warmth came from his palm. He smiles me, "You really become a white swan!"
I smiled, I also knew that I was confirmed by the same year, so I should also be more confident in front of him.
"I am growing up?" When he was 183 cm, I always felt that I like a child.
"You!" He greeted my forehead, "Too much! We are more matching together!"
I stayed, I don't know what this sentence is. I remembered a lot of things in the story later, and would happen to me? Is he finally discovered my cute, found that I was the easiest happiness he had to pay attention to him?
"What about thinking? Take me to play this city!" He took me to make a dream.
I spit my tongue and laughed my own self-satisfaction.
After walked side by side, we took a small bar to sit down. I sat with him. One time, there is a little bit of feelings. I am very uneasy to look at the affectionate singer on the stage, but I didn't listen to what he was singing at all.
"We drink this bar?" He suddenly broke the silence, I didn't react over, and I looked at him.
"How? Don't you dare?" He looked at me in a hurry.
"What is wrong?" I am bloody, "service life, come to a bottle of liquor, the highest degree!"
I went back to give him a provocation, but I found that he has exposed a smile of a paypter.
There is no way, although I lived straightforward, but I still had a hard scalp to share the bottle of heights with him.
We chatted very happy, from our primary school to high school twelve years, we seem to have returned to carefree, innocent age.
My alcohol is really unsatisfactory, after the bottle of wine, I've been dazzling, and Dong Zi Xi is put. When you have a small bar, I tried to make myself a stable, and I don't let him see my drunkenness.
"Let's go swimming?" He went back, I think he is the male protagonist of "Soul Blue Bridge", smiling at me, I have an illusion that is like the world.
"I?" I figured out what he meant, I can't help but surprise, I am a pure arid duck, I don't dare to look at the river, the lake, and I am now unclear in the northwest of southeast. Let me go swimming? I am a big pair of eyes, I want to see if he is joking.
"I know you don't dare! Forget it, when I didn't say it!"
The disdain on his face is deeply stabbed, knowing is that it is, I can't stand it! How many years, I don't want him to show this expression, that means that I am not worth mentioning in his mind, it is not eye-catching. "Go!" Although it is a gap, I know that myself, talking or deficient.
We went to the swimming pool. When I put on him to give me a swimwear, I stood in front of the mirror, I am surprised that my body is so moving. My face is also red in the role of alcohol, and is extraordinary. Indeed, I am not the same as a few years ago, I have already fell into a beautiful girl!
He has already in the pool, far away, I saw him at a glance, he also looked at me, and his eyes were full of horror and praise. I gently underwater, shrink in the corner, I only hope that no one should pay attention to me, I will stay alone. However, he immediately came over, and he brought me to the deep water area. He would have to have my life, I was so afraid, so I hugged him tight. We have never been like that, our breath is interlaced with each other, and I startally feel that his heartbeat is getting faster and faster.
I think my face is more red. If we are in anyone, I am very uneasy, because I am nothing to do with him. I want to break away, but he hifts me tight.
"I take you to dive!" He whispered in my ear, the strong breathing passed through my ear, and I was a heartbeat.
I slammed my breath. He took me into the water, and I immediately attacked me immediately, I couldn't help but wanted to shout. When the water suddenly pushed my mouth, and he was bitter. I am struggling, I want to cry. He picked me, raised the water, and slowly went to the shallow water.
"You are so light!" He rushed to say nothing. I lifted a dizzy head, seeing that I have stayed away from deep water, I don't lush. When I understand him, I found it as if I was holding the bride, I was very intimate. Until the swimming pool, I didn't dare to look at him, as if I did something a loss. But think about it before and after, I have a red heart to jump for a long time, and there is still a little happiness in my heart. is this real? Does he have a feeling of feeling?
Happy time is always short, and when I arrived at him, he was going to leave. During this period, we were better than a day, my feelings, and she had been collected for many years, and they can finally release it!
"When are you getting married?" We sat in a room and began to talk about every day.
"I don't know." I shook my head, looked at him, I want to see him asking this question from his expression. He turned, didn't look at me, sighed: "If I don't agree with my family, I will marry Xiaona!"
I didn't know what to say in a time. I was in a long time, only one voice in my heart was shouting: What is going on? what about me? What am I?
I unexpectedly, I am particularly calm, silent, because I can't say anything.
"I really want to marry her. Can you understand?"
"Why?" I have moved your lips and I can't stand these words. why? Why can't I be me and him, but she and him, she is not better than me!
"Do you think she will be a good wife?" He asked me.
"Will, she is a very good person ..." I told the tears to drop, and said infinitely.
I only know yourself in my heart, I have not been cheated, I am just thinking, I and him, I can't be a person who wrote in the story. I can't play a self-satisfied person, but I am still unfortunately a person! I suddenly felt a satisfying grievance, but I don't know who I can say. I biased my head and I didn't want him to see my sadness.
"Fortunately, there is no happening between us, or I don't know what to do!" I opened a joke, I didn't care, so many years, I have already used it to hide my true side in front of him. You can't destroy your own ingredients between this time.
He still doesn't look at me, he doesn't dare, he is guilty!
"You can rest assured, those who are hug! Everyone is a young man! I ... I won't think more." I patted his shoulder. He looks at me, wants to say, my heart has passed a sadness.
"I just want to ask you ... Why do you find me?" I still can't help but ask. I hope he can say that there is also feelings about me, even if it is only a little bit.
"Whoever sees a lovely girl will like me!" He replied to it.
My heart fell at that moment to the bottom of the valley, ice, cold.
"I am sorry……"
I shook my head, smiled faintly, this is the boy I secretly loved many years? He has changed, he doesn't care about my friendship with him, it is so easy to destroy. He tangled me for him for him for so many years! However, I can't hate him, even if it is a little ...
"Forget it! I only have a request ... When you walk, hug me on the platform, ok?" I looked up, I think my eyes will be expected, and let him not bear to refuse.
On the platform, I looked at him in the heart, my heart was all sad, my feelings have already paid, and it is impossible to leave him. Fortunately, it is dark night. Fortunately, it is dim, I have to cover my own fragile and don't let him see my desperate expression. He hugged me, gently, I haven't come to the smell, he pushed me. I turned into the body, and I went to the platform all the way.
This is the end! I am standing outside the train station, looking at that big clock, moving above a little bit, getting closer to the train from the train carrying him away. The night of the first spring is actually very cold. I just stood so much. I remembered the words he said: "There is too much life, it is not that you can choose, just like me and Xiao Na ... I've left, How can you rest assured alone here? Also, have a college classmate to take care of you. "
Teardown, on your face, hurt pain. Time finally arrived, I realized how badly, my feelings, my helplessness, at the moment of the train left, I almost lost the courage to stay here. I don't know how long I cried, I have standed tired, I will be numb, but when he is far away, will he will know?
Many of the same days like today, I sat in that small bar, looking for the breath of him, I drink, I listened to the affectionate singer, I finally listened to what he was singing, he was singing : Good man will not let the woman feel hurt a little ...
I was hurt, not because he is not a good man, but because I am not his beloved woman.
