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I know that 9CBS this place is already a lot of years ago, and I am often coming to visit, but this is the woman's post here.
First introduce yourself first.
In 1999, 211 universities that were able to enter the Shanghai. In 2003, after graduation, he entered a software company. At present, the number of people is> 800, making software outsourcing projects. In 2005, in mid-July and the girlfriend in love for 4 years and a half, I came to Japan after 2 months, so far.
At the beginning of the first day, I came into contact with Apple II. I started my computer career; the financial condition of the family was very general. Before the university, I would help them buy a computer to solve the computer problem. Slowly add this knowledge. Until the first grade of the university, I have my first computer, so crazy fans, and have my own home page; at the deputy president of the computer association, responsible for technical, formation of the Association and Information Technology website. At the same time, it also undertakes the development and maintenance of several commercial websites; most of the university has put into computer research, including hardware, software, network, and various development languages; the enthusiasm for the computer is accompanied by me. 14 years, isn't the reason, mastering this knowledge is always faster than anyone; if you have a good job in 2003, you have started to transform your personal website into .NET as the architecture process . Although there is no relationship with the work at the time, I still spent half a year to complete the writing of all the code of the website; www.pclover.net is my website, without any business ingredient, no income. Broadband fees, the cost of purchasing the server is all self-pockets. In this website, I put it a lot of energy, just recently, I have been too busy, and I rarely have time to maintain it. The only wish is that all China is only a person who is interested in computers or finds the content of the computer because I have seen my website, I have no white flowers.
Ok, there is much nonsense, return to the topic, the following is the last letter, I wrote a few months, I have not sent it again. Very long, no matter if there is any interest to read, no matter what you don't have to smash the brick, I will thank you for your attention.
The original text is as follows (all the names in the text are replaced by XX)
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XX: I really want to miss you! I haven't been so good for a long time, from the initial "XX" to "XX" to "wife", as if now go back to the starting point. I miss you very much, I want to tell you what I feel and I want to tell you that I cherish this relationship with you, so I have the urge to write this letter. I am a person who is not good at words, some words can only be expressed by these words. I still remember the winter in the winter of five years ago. At this moment, the mood at this moment is similar, I don't know what will happen in the future, only waiting for confusion and I don't know what it is. From knowing you, learn from you, slowly start like you, and later feelings getting more and more deeper today, unconsciously experienced five spring and summer autumn and winter. That time, it rains at the door of Friendship Canteen, I sang a song for me for me "I only care about you", I just carefully. Although the impulse when I started love, the excitement slowly weakened over time, but it was getting deeper, more and more like a relaxed feelings, but in my heart, you have become the most A person. You know me, I am more serious for people, especially treating emotions. Sometimes you joke, let's break up, although just talk about fun, then you can't help but laugh, but I will get me very nervous, I have never joked with you with you, I care Your feelings, I am afraid that one day will really lose you. What you said, I promise you, maybe I have no response on my surface, but I am feeling feeling, because I know this is my life, I hope that myself can go, I regret it. . When you miss the university, you can don't leave early, eat together, eat together, come together, go home together, go home together, buy things together, play together, put the school big and small road pressure. You can also talk to many of the XX, XX, XXX, etc., and work hard for the college association. Friendship's meat, fried chicken, three-go Hall of Golden Master, Teacher's Spring Roll, Soup Pack of Suzhou Tang Packhouse, and Zhang Ding Chicken, those who taste you still remember? In the evening, we often go to the seven-tech self-study, talk to the good friends, foam the dragon in the office, go to the bedroom; also miss the day of the Japanese, there is no class in the afternoon, you can go to Shanghai East to see you. , Eat together, and play badminton together. We often recall these beautiful past, do you remember? When you leave the university life, when you find a job, everyone will have a high expectation. I always think about an enviable job. When I discuss it, I will get someone else's praise. It will be very satisfied. However, I really have to work, I will find that there is so much person who has the ability to have myself. Even if there is a good job, if you don't continue to work hard, if you consider, you will not be more than others, it will still fall behind, and the competition is Always exist. You also told me, sometimes I really don't want to think about how it will look in the future, and how it will work. These words often think repeatedly in my brain, life is very practical, but I don't want you to feel pressure, I don't care about what work, I don't care, as long as you like it, do happiness, stability is good . As for economic income, you can take a little more. In fact, work hard is a kind of life attitude, not to be very rich, but in the next few decades to ensure that the family is stable, two people or this family can eat food, parents can be stable. Life life is the ultimate goal, this is also a consensus of our two people.
From the buying house to work, from the future of two people in the future, aspect, and our children's education, the exchange of two people is actually a lot. I still remember the days of reading Japanese, where your Handong's bedroom is in a unhappy position, even if the sun is very good, it will feel very cold. Every time I go, every time I feel this cold, I think that I can stay here alone at night, my heart will feel a cold. Every winter, your hands are very cold, I have a frostbite last year. Maybe you are used to it, but I can't do it, I am very distressed, watching it is a little red, I don't know what to express, always, always There is a kind of feelings that cannot be met. After the official work, the work was busy, you also moved to Shanghai West, and the opportunity we met was much less, and it couldn't stick to it all day. Every time I have already seen you to the station or say goodbye on the Internet, you always say that I want to get married early, I want to have our own home. This kind of feelings, I can deeply understand, I also want to see you from waking up every day, then pinch your nose, kiss you, you can always take you with you. But whenever you hear these words, you will become a bit heavy. When you are school, we are all very simple. Simply come together as long as you get late late every day, don't care about anything else. Later, with your high school classmates married, some friends around us also have a marriage, I am also going abroad in the near future, and we discuss the number of marriages. This also touched my nerve again and again, and married is not far away. At that time, I thought a lot, I asked my life, I was together with you, and I thought about how would we live together later, and I have been thinking about it for a long time. I have always hope that I have been A person responsible for the feelings of the feelings. Reviewing that we took the hand all the way, there was no big rolling, and there were occasional friction, but we all said that no contradictions were not night. Once, you sent me a chat record for you and the high school classmates, I was very moving: "I like this old husband's wife's wife, the life of the two people is all in each other, each other is the other party The only, how good, this world does not have other people, this is very deep feelings, you must have a strange origin in our usual, this life can meet each other ... ". Cold winter, hot summer, even if a person has a cold, two people will hug together without any counseling, although life is very warm, I also believe this is a very deep feeling. In the university, someone else is divided into the same, when we graduate, many people we know are broken up, but we have always insisted that in the eyes of many people, we are a pair of love. If it is really unsuitable, it should be separated. What are our years to maintain this feelings? I think, because I understand each other, each other, more importantly, life circles have different people still can trust each other. "Don't separate with you in the future," I am not afraid of the sky, anyway, I have my husband together ", when I remembered these words, my heart was unlimited. At that time, I understand, this is accompanied by me, it is worth you to use my life to love the wife, it is you.
Whenever you ask me if you don't want you one day, I still remember what you replied? That is not an unhappy cis, but my true feelings, because you have already entered my life, I walked into my heart. I hope that I have a sense of responsibility, not only considering the happiness you are with you today, but I have to think about how to live in the future of the next few years. I often ask yourself to take care of you forever, what do you need to do to make you happy? I know that marriage is not difficult, as long as there is a little impulse, but I know more to be with you, not just give a commitment to receive a certificate, but it is a responsibility. It is the responsibility of yourself and the responsibility for the two big families, but also the responsibility for you. This idea, this strong feeling has never experienced before. Sometimes I listen to you to say that Pipi is what they plan to get married. I really hope that I can make something you have to be happy than they. I am very eager to give you a happy home, but what should I do? I am confused, I have some irritability in my heart. I have thought about our future, buy a house, marriage, and support my parents, and the growth education of children later, we all want two children, do you remember? We hope that our Mom and Dad can live well, usually do not have to save too much, eat better, improve the living standards, let them enjoy the old age. We also hope that our children will accept good education in the future. Once I saw a family expenditure of the young newspaper now to cultivate a child to the university, we also discussed this for this. When you are not there, I have made a detailed calculation in the future of the family may need, a cost of accounting, do you know how much pressure is my heart? I just graduated, I have nothing to savings, watching the figure, I can only bite the teeth, we are not born in the rich family, everything can only struggle with themselves. If you don't think about our future, don't face real life, but in the current situation, like the university, although care worry, you can have enough time, you can have enough time and you. , But such a husband is a qualified husband? I am not experiencing, I want to take advantage of it now, I have a good fortune to fight, put the business foundation, I have married, I have a child, I will not spend so many energy in the career, take care of the family, Good man who loves home. If you don't have a long time, the days have been tight, what problems have been made, but also let the parents are worried, say what to give you happiness, it really became an empty talk. If you give up some rest hours, you can change our long-lasting happiness in the future. I want to say, I am willing. At the beginning, there is a lot of monthly salary, but the work is very hard. I realized that my parents' hardworking and life is not easy. I have never bought things like a notebook, PDA, MD. My parents saved in life. If I don't go home, if you don't come to my house, they are more simple. So, most of the month I will send them to them, there is a small part to give yourself necessary. Your family situation I am also very clear, May 1 in Hangzhou, I also found a lot of similar places in two families. We will save money, you will save money, have a birthday, holiday, and you will not go to play, you will not go to a very expensive place, and you will also look at it. Contacting is often unpacking, with the unique number of secrets of our two people miss each other.
I will always say "buy expensive" when I go to buy clothes, I don't have to do it. As long as my wife likes. " In my heart is full of gratitude and apology, I have always been happy to have such a good wife. We often together with our future, and you will talk about your parents' attitude towards us, I know that they are very born their daughter. For four years, our relationship between our two people has been very good, very love, this point they can see, they have been watching because of the uncertainty for the future. First, can I have my own career, there is enough ability to assume a family responsibility; second, in the long life road, I can always give you care, give you a long time Happiness. After all, they are elders, experience, seeing, thinking more than us, their ideas are more practical than our ideas. I don't have a spectacle, I don't know what method can convince them. For me, I will take action may be the best way. At least let them see that I have kept working, using my outstanding work performance and to prove myself, even if I have a hard point. . It is very tired in this year, not just because how hard is, but more because I start feeling the kind of competition and unfairness in the school, I don't work hard, there will be someone else more than you replace it. You, when you work hard to do things, watching the old employees around me, but I have a salary than yourself, sometimes I will be imbalanced. Perhaps it is the relationship between this industry. When you are busy, you can't imagine it before, just like a school in school, take more than ten hours a day, even for a few months, this taste. Sometimes I have to handle several things at the same time at the same time, and it is inevitable that I have been exhausted, I am upset. When chatting with you, I will talk to you some work experience, or talk about some colleagues, but I don't want to mention my work, because more is boring and annoying, I don't want to take these unpleasant vent. On the people you love, just want to share your harvest and success with you. At that time, I often mentioned that I had a child worry-free day, and I would like to take you back to me back to me. I don't have much, because I always want to listen quietly, I don't want to interrupted, I don't want to interrupted, I don't want to interrupt, I just want to feel your life and happiness, I want to listen. Listen to your voice in your heart, so my mood will gradually be comfortable. Because of the ability to be outstanding, I am often borrowed from other project groups. I am just a very ordinary person. Although I have always maintained a kind of enthusiasm for the computer, I will feel very monotonous, I want to be lazy, and I will play. Although I am very tired, I have never been late, but I have finished doing all the project groups to go home. When the project is idle, colleagues will see the film to play games or chat, I almost participate in it, I read a book quietly, learn new things. No matter when it is, I will always think of you in my heart, thinking that I should have to make my future, not a waste of time. I often work overtime, it is already late in the night, and I can only sleep for three or four hours when I don't even sleep. When the morning alarm clock sounded, I really want to be almost a while, especially in big winter. But in a fascinating, you will think of you, thinking about things that are more important than sleeping. Working for half a year, it was not rated as advanced individuals and became a small group. Colleagues, leaders think I am very capable, very diligent. I can have such a big perseverance because I have you in my heart, let me have the direction of life and the goal of struggle.
I know that you have always expected that I can work well. You often send text messages to me, but it is the four words of "my husband", becoming my endless motivation, when work is exhausted, I will think of it You will ask yourself to stick to it, you can excite the status of sleepy sleep. Colleagues often joking, I am not a planet, I am unbelievable for me to maintain a strong effort in the whole day. I have also been named in the company. On weekends, because of the usual tired, I often can't get my spirit, I don't do anything, if you are not around me, I will fall asleep on the bed. To tell the truth, I don't like to go shopping, but I often want to take your hand on the street. I know that love shopping is a girl's nature. It doesn't feel very tired. Is a man's compulsory course. I have no requirements, and I have never complained it. I don't want to tell you that I am very tired. I really don't want you to worry about me. I don't want to get comfort. As long as you are with me, watching you can't worry, you are already my biggest satisfaction. One night before last year, I was originally a new year party and advanced employee commendation meeting. Later, you told me to go to your home country, see your family, I know that the Spring Festival is going to work for 6 days, no chance to go to your home, will not hesitate to agree, then very embarrassed Calling the general manager said that something suddenly can't take a prize. These two things are light, and they don't need to make comparisons in my heart, the results and honors are illusory things, and you are really there. Maybe you don't experience, you can pay attention to the super girl, you can "harass" when you are bored, I can do what you like to do, but I can't. Busy from early morning, you must treat your work more seriously than others, so that there is not much time to pay attention to what you are interested in, I don't want to accompany my future wife, which makes me very embarrassed. You can look at my working time statistics table, there is time I have a card record on the card every day. What is the concept of time a thousand hours of overtime? I didn't play outside, I didn't get into the grass outside, but I was in the future, in order to fight in the future. In addition to these time, it takes another half an hour on the road. And the tax system I do part-time, it is necessary to invest a lot of time a day. In my life, in addition to work, you still work, you don't really belong to your own time. Colleagues were very surprised that this film did not read, the film did not read, only a few of them were also asked with you. Sometimes my colleagues, friends want to organize the event, can you choose to choose to choose, because I want to give this very limited time more points, even if I go shopping, even the night is catching at you I stepped into the door to get into the door to talk to you earlring, I can't hate that the time of one day can be used for two days. I also have canceled the weekend overtime many times. At least every week, I want to be with you. In these two years, in addition to busy work, I don't have other memories in addition to being with you.
In March last year, we went to Century Park in order to commemorate the four years of love. I am lying on the lawn on the lawn to feel the warm sunshine in the spring; I also realize that you have a long time to ride a double bicycle again, the previous time is on the Oriental Oasis, do you remember? ? Let's take a boat together. When the administrator's motorboat is rising from us, the ship will remember with the wonderful and exciting feelings of the bursts of crafts and down, do you remember? Taking your hand, just like returning to my childhood, let me forget the pressure of the work, let me forget all the troubles. May 1st, you still haven't worried after returning from Hangzhou, excited. Although I have already put into a nervous job, I will return home every day, listen to the happiness in my heart, watching the photos you have passed together, my heart is very happy, we plan to go to the summer vacation Go to Chongming Forest Park. These, not I am recalling now. When I was exhausted, I remembered you, I would think of the time we are together, the mood will be comfortable, then I can inspire the spirit to put into work again. Every time I think of you, I also firmly determine your feelings, more eager to give you happiness. Many ideas have not come to communicate with you. In the past, we were transparent, and there was no words. I have never thought about what I want to hide in my heart, because in this world, my most trusted person is you. What we have two feelings, don't you say to you? Life is our two people, we need to face it together to create. Just, when working, buying a house, marriage, going abroad, I need more time to consider. I have always said that you are like a child in my heart, I know that you will consider a lot of things, but I don't want you to have a heartfelt, I hope to see is your longevity. There are many things in life, and only when you experience it, you can experience the sour and bitterness, I think what I can do is that everything will bear more, always with you, face you when you encounter difficulties, Just like what you said, "the sky is not afraid". In this half a year, although in Japan, my heart has been staying in Shanghai. I try to make myself busy, work hard, go out to play with my colleagues, play basketball on the weekend, participate in various activities, make my life become full, and try to make myself happy. But I still feel clear that I have been thinking about it, just like you are still by me. I am not ignorant, I will not let the feelings of my feelings, I will go to yourself, go to the too beautiful you think, and think of the once feelings. I am very clear that what I have been pursuing in these years, what I want, I still think about you every morning. In the past four years, I have never seen it for more than two weeks. I didn't expect this time so long. I even thought that cold and cold will make myself can't breathe. I really miss you. Do you know? I still remember that time you went to the library mobile phone for a long time. I didn't think I would contact you through XX; I still have to sing overnight, I didn't fall asleep overnight; I usually call you to call it for a long time. I will be very nervous, my heart is uncertain ... I think of everything in the past, I finally understand that it has already been integrated into my life.
When a cool breeze is blowing, you will think that you have more clothes, whether your hands are still so cold, will you have a cold, the throat will not be uncomfortable; if you eat, you will think that you eat today, have you? Fertial to eat on time; walk on the road, I will think that you will not care about it and sprain the feet, will not have more black blue; it is raining, I will miss you, will you have an umbrella, will you wet ... In the past, as long as a phone, a text message can make yourself. Now, without your message, you can't hear your voice, this kind of concern makes me unknown. I am constantly telling yourself, love a person is not necessarily to get her, as a result, for her, let her pursue the happiness she wants, just seeing her happiness is enough. But in the deep heart, I still can't help but you can return to my side, or I can't help but say it, I want to give my own opportunity, a hope. I still need your support and encouragement, please forgive my selfishness, I don't want to lose you forever. I have been listening to you, I want to marry me, I don't have experience, I thought that such love was very stable, no preparation, I didn't detect your feelings change, I didn't protect this love. I don't want to take a busy pressure, I know that my ability is limited, I don't have good enough. Just, I want to say, I have been working hard for our dream. The time and energy spent on work, behind you and our future, I contain my deep feelings to you, love you deeply, do you know? Once, a little thing or a hug will make you feel touched, excited, that feels seem to have been in your heart. Now we have an invisible wall between each other. No matter what I have done, it is difficult to pick up a small wave in your heart. Maybe I am just an entangled role in your eyes. I also know that as long as I accept another feelings, I can forget you. But I don't want, I can't bear to be determined to be determined to you in the past five years. I can't bear to put down the more than 1600 day nights we have together. I really can't bear it. Today, although it is a person, I still want to tell you: In the past five years, my feelings are always one for your feelings. I, may never give you the original sweetness and excitement, I can give, only a long-lasting persistence and expression of love. Just want to send you a blessing for you in every holiday; just want to spend together in every birthday in your life; just want to take a little bit of a little bit of our annual commemoration; only I want to go to your hand when you have forgotten things; just want to hold your hand in every cold winter, hug you, let you no longer feel cold; just want to be you in every hot summer Send a cold drink, use a towel to wipe it on the sweat; just want to be held every time, not being taken by you, but pull your hand does not let you have a chance to fall; just want to enter your phone When the water is broken or stolen, give you comfort, buy one, don't let you worry; I just want to think about you before doing anything, remind yourself to do everything seriously; just want to When you feel tired, you can rely on the arm that is not very generous but you can always rely on the arm; just want to take your hand and finish my life. January 2006
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