Saturday, July 24, 2004, 〖〖Lunar Calendar, Monkey Year, June, eighth, 19:14, sunny
The same hill, the same light rain, like a fog, just a different mood. Today, go to the mountain. More than 50 days ago, I learned that you already have a boyfriend from your reply, it is really incomparable to the soul. It can still be clearly remembered that in the small rain, 彷徨, helpless, hesitation, but now I don't want to think about it again, go to the aftertaste. After all, it is too painful for me. Everything seems to be in front of the eye, it seems that it is so long ... maybe this life is also difficult to meet you, but I am at least now, I feel that you seem to be in the distance, as if I can hear me, as if I can understand me What do you think in your heart, know what I am talking about. Is it very funny? Also confused? This kind of distant and close feelings seem to have troubled me, this kind of thinking, is it surpassed you? Change the pin of the soul? At Friday, the Human Resources Department's colleague found me, provided a contract, and now I can sign a contract. So I remembered you. You have leaving nine days. Is it ok? Has already entering a busy review state? do you know? At that time, I heard that you have to leave Qingdao, I really want to tell you, I will go together! I really hope to be able to accompany you, although I haven't gone through the previous years, but I want to take your hand every day after walking. At that time, Hou has been worried about the Human Resources Department to find me, because I am afraid to lose and leave the opportunity to leave with you. However, I finally didn't make this decision, why? Maybe this is because it is mature? I know if there is a kind of love called "give up"? No longer young, no longer young. Is this a kind of progress or a helpless? Now, choose to stay in this city, stay in this place where you have had you. Lonely, it is really not able to resist. Who will become your friend? Who will become your confide? Who will be your lover? I once dreamed of going to the seaside with you, or sitting, or walking; also dreams with you to go to bed with self-study, accompany you; also dreams with you to stroll in the street, staying in people ... this Everything, can only be a dream. Sometimes I am thinking, is it because of loneliness or because of feelings? I have no answer, just, I really want to "the hand of the child, and the old man", I really want to accompany you to experience the storm. Now, I hope you can hear it, know these, how I hope you can say a love, just, even I know, this can only be dream ...
I often think about it recently. How is a person success? What did I have to do this in the past few years? A colleague who is originally company is ready to start, he invited me to do it. I am very confused, I can't see the future direction. Leaving the original company, I want to find a different life, but I find that there is no difference in the past. I always feel that I am very busy, but I look back, I feel that it doesn't do anything. I don't understand, how is life? Is it successful? You said, you don't like Qingdao, because it is too comfortable here, time, you are afraid that you will have no fight. In fact, I have also thought of many times, but there is no answer, what will it bring to yourself? success? happy? Merry? what exactly is it? It may be the pursuit of emotional feelings, let me think that there is nothing more important in relation to feelings, just, I have no everything now. Maybe because you have a boyfriend who loves you, so you are not afraid to fight in a strange city. You said, you still choose a computer, but then? After graduation? Still engaged in such a job? But in fact, you don't really like this work, and girls may not be very suitable. I always want to tell you, careful choice, after all, this is a chance. Just there is no chance, I feel that I am not eligible to tell you this. After all, I have been confused in the current state of life, and I have always wanted to understand where the future life path is? Now, you can sign a contract with the company, use this time to think about what the future direction is. In the future, I may leave IT, may continue to work in this, maybe I will choose my own business. I have recently begun to look at some computer professional classes, maybe it is affected by you, huh, huh :) Although I don't know what to use, it is also a means of enriching my own.
