"Let the high wall fall down" ---- Visiting Deliba
Li Jiao
Editor's note: This article is translated from "Voice of THE MARTYRS" 1998. The author is investigated. The founder of the Romanian priest, the "Voice of Martyrs", one of the leaders of the Romanian underground church, who has been in the first fourteen year, including the decision in the daylight. basement. At the prayer and rescue of many brothers and sisters around the world, they were finally sold by Romania in accordance with the political criminals (a trading of Rover's current year).
(1) Going out of the high wall
Fifty years ago, a group of Catholic taught people from Europe lived in Kolkata in India. They lived in a magnificent monastery. Although life is very regular, they are generally, and their lives are quite stable and comfortable, monastery There are also a very beautiful garden outside the building, and the grass in the garden is a green grass.
The entire monastery has a high wall in all sides, and the tips cannot come from high walls, sometimes in order to see a doctor. However, they will take a car and will come back immediately.
In the high wall, life is comfortable and stable, but it is a completely different world. The Second World War broke out, the food transport was greatly affected by the transportation of the army, the price rose, and a large number of farmers did not save much. Now these savings are turned into Wulu because of inflation, so Kolka will influence Thousands of poor people are said that about two million people are hungry. People who don't starve are only live in the street, until today, we can see those who live in the street. Very tragic life. For example, I have seen a child in the streets of Kolkata, I saw a small child in the ditch in the ditch, and the mouth, and finally sorry. I have a big cup. I will drink water quickly. Go.
Just at the door of our hotel, two little boys will lying down every night, they cover a piece, brother is only three years old, the younger brother is only three years old, the two will always occupy the same place, almost almost It is put together, they sleep on time, and they will not see the trace after six o'clock in the morning.
These children, many of the end of their lives, can not enter any house, or may not be a taste of tap water.
Do you live in the monastery of the monastery know the miserable world? This is always a mystery, but these cultivations from Europe, India are a backward country. This tragic scene is nothing special. Their mission is just a woman's school, teaching a batch of money. Family of children.
Dereis is in this high wall, she is born in a good educated Yugoslavian family, from the small education education, 18 years old entered this monastery, becoming a cultivation, although she has come to India Her life is still very European style.
However, in the way to the hidden hitch of Daguing, Demato sent her to her to give her a command, she should serve the poorest people in the world.
In 1948, Dereas sent her female to live in the monastery for more than 20 years. She took off the heavy black European practitioner robe, replaced a white dress like Indian farmers, this Set of clothes with blue sides, Deisha is from this to the high wall, walk into a poverty, dirty tragic world.
The high wall is still existed today, but it is said to Derbea, and the high wall disappears. She will not live a comfortable and stable life. She wants to see someone is lying in the street of naked naked, and she can't ignore. Many people are lying on the road, and they will die. She can't pretend that someone can't see someone who was bitten by the mouse. The lower body is also almost completely worms.
Dereis is a person walks out, she wants to serve the poorer, even for the Catholic Church, this is still a strange thing, and many priests think she is wrong, but her belief has always supported her. It is still not discouraged after she encounters how many setbacks. By today, after forty-six years, Dede is a household name. On November 16 this year, she will receive a Ph.D. in the University of Yiyi, in order to increase her understanding of her, I decided to answer her in Kolka.
(2) We understand the depest
What kind of person is Demato a woman?
Her first feature is absolutely poor. She not only serves the poorest person, she also asked her to become a poor, she only had three suites, she didn't wear socks, only sandals, her accommodation except for electric lights The only electrical appliance is a phone, which is still recently installed. There is no one after the computer.
She also did not arrange time for her. Without the secretary, she replied with her. The letter was written by her. Before I got to visit her, Professor Yang Changxia, the Sun Yat-sen University, said that she will have a group of public relations personnel, otherwise she is propaganda, otherwise she How will it be so famous? And how can so many people follow her, I think it seems like some truth, I think if she has such a public relations person, I can introduce her a video of the Delisha, but I am wrong. She has no public relations personnel, there is no propaganda.
When the number of people in Catholic Drop, her tribe has been vigorously developing. Now there are more than 7,000 troops and monks to participate in this kind of love. The monk's troops sworn all the best for the Poorest of The Poor.
As for her thoughts?
Dereis's talents often emphasize that Jesus "I thirsty" on the cross, "I am thirsty", and Jesus said that Jesus represents all the suffering people in all human beings. The so-called thirst is not only physiologically needed, but also the most important thing that represent people is suffering from human love, from human care.
Dedoramifier has established more than 100 people who serve the poor, and Jesus has been nailed to the cross on the cross, and there are two words "I am thirsty" next to the cross. She wants to remind everyone that anyone is in pain, we should see the shadow of Christ in his body, and anyone who is doing this unfortunate person is done for Christ.
Dedora's mobility prayer said:
A pure heart, it is easy to see Christ /
In hungry people /
Among the deficient dew /
In homeless person /
In a lonely person /
In the people who want to have /
In the person who loves to love /
Zhongxiao /
In the alcoholism /
In the 躺 乞 乞 中 中 /
The poor is hungry, not only wants to have a bread, but also want someone to love him /
The poor is the deficient dew, but not only want someone to give him a piece, but also hope that someone can /
Dignity to others should have.
The poor people are homeless, but not only hostel can live, but also hope that no one will abandon him, forget him, not care about him.
Dereis is not just a social worker. In order to serve the poorest people, her monks have to become a poor, and the monks are not allowed to wear, only so, they are served by the monks. The poor will feel some dignity.
Only by the eyes can understand the spirit of this kind of service, they are not just "service" poor, they are almost "serving" the poor.
Dedoramid taught her to know that she knew she could not solve poverty problems in humans. This problem must be left to politicians, scientists, and economists slowly solve, but she can't wait, she knows that there are too many people living in the world, she must take care of them first. Because the monks have a lot of life, Dermati does not need a lot of money, she never raises money, with her reputation, as long as she is willing to have a charity, big companies will donate money, but she Never refuse. She is reluctant to do this kind of thing to ensure her monk's pureness. They have no public relations units, obviously this reason.
In fact, the favorite of Dema's favorite is not only someone donated money to her, but she even wants someone to volunteer.
In the silent text of the deretet, there is a sentence that I have never been able to understand:
A pure heart /
Freely give /
Freely love /
Until it is trauma
To be honest, I have never understood it, what is "the heart injury". This time I saw the workplace of the Dedaza talents, and I participated in the work of the monk and truly understand the relationship between the so-called "mental injury" and love.
(3) Five minutes meetings with de Afisha
To see the Delisha, there is only one way, that is, I watched the mass of 6 o'clock in the morning, I met with her to meet September 4th. Five o'clock, I will arrive, and the cultivates have arrived. Everyone sits, it seems to be her order, there is no knee in the church, on the one hand, it is probably a thorough India . In addition to the women, dozens of foreigners were also present, and later I knew that these volunteers were volunteers from the world.
I am looking for it everywhere, I finally found the cultivation of the world. She didn't have a little shelf in the last row. The spiritual leader did not, stood quietly in the last row of the talents.
Mass is over, a lot of people want to see her, I found that Dede did not have a meeting room, she stood in the corridor outside the church in the corridor, talking to her to talk to her. There is no requirement to take a photo with her, although each person is only talking about a few minutes, the turn is half an hour, after I have, there are twenty sites waiting.
She actually remembers that she is going to accept the honorable Ph.D., although she is in the phone and I finally finalized November 16th, although I sent three letters to her, tell her that the date is already finalized, but she still forgot. It is that day, so I have faced the last letter, and the letter will explain that it is November 16. Then we barely talked about it a few days in Taiwan, she finally agreed to four days.
I asked her that she didn't shoot any videos to describe their work. She said no, I asked her to introduce their work. She said that she said that she said nearby a cathedral, maybe I can find it there. This book is. I didn't ask her to have a public relations director and the answer is already obvious.
The things I want to do have not done, because I gave her a check, she wants to sign a receipt, tossing for a few minutes, there is more than twenty people behind, I have to end the meeting, one of my follows A sentence "I came from London", I gave her some cash, and I kneel down and kissed the feet, she was very embarrassed, but did not refuse. I found that her feet have changed from rheumatism.
(4) Experience of the dying home
I can have three days of free activities in Kolkata, so I decided to go to the dying home to be founded to volunteer.
The dying home is the founding of Dereis, and once she saw a stray of a stray, she was going to die, she was in the train, she couldn't find him, wait for her to take the train back. I found that he has passed away. At that time, she had an idea. If someone talked to him before he died, he will definitely die. Another time, Deisha was discovered an old woman on the street. Her body was bullied by the mouse and worms everywhere. She brought her a few hospitals, although there was a hospital finally accepted her. She died in a few hours.
Dereis has created a dying home, and the people here must be dying and have to be homeless.
Kolgen's answer is a homeless person, and you must take care of you in the evening, or you will be able to touch people sleeping on the ground. One volunteer told me that there was a lady of Ireland, walked around the street every day. If you see a disease, you will be sent to the dying home, and she will often find the hemps. Decishamma and a ambulance line, there is a consensus that they will serve her. This patient will be sent to the mad hospital.
In the dying home, the patient has taken care of, making the last death, before the death, at least the warmth of the world, because the monks of the monks are very good, they try to grasp the patient's hand, if the patient is serious, there must be some people Live his hand so that he felt that human beings love him.
Although Dereisham is a Catholic taught, she absolutely respects the religion of others. After the death of every patient, she will be buried by his religious belief.
On September 4, the volunteer of the dying family, but everyone is busy, my first work is to wash clothes, washed an hour, I slipped up to the clothes, I found them There is no clip of the clip. Just encounter the wind, I have to make a knot for each dress.
The clothes came back, suddenly someone called me: "Monk, some people die, you have to help to lift the body" I am not a monk, but I don't dare to deny, so I will carry it, carry it into a suspended mine. I didn't see what she likes, I only felt that her body was very good.
It's almost 11 o'clock, a priest came to the mass, the scriptures used in English, but all the sings were in Indian, imagined like a Buddhist monk, but more energetic, toned and more, except the organ In addition, there is a male doctor who is drumming. When these men's doctor sing, I will be intoxicated like a US black singling song. Many of the cultivation will continue to work in Mass, and only the leader will go to the leader. Mass is over, we have to share the rice, I found that the patient is still good, it is a curry meal. Before this, I noticed a young patient. He didn't take a few days old. He once told me to get a glass of milk for him. I also fed him a spoonful of him. Now he wants me to feed him. A nun said that I was all exhausted, because he has always been eaten by himself. Punish talents said that he likes me very much. After eating, he still had to pull my hand.
After the time to 12 o'clock, a guy came to me, "Monk, the patient wants to go to the toilet", I know that this young patient is weak, I can't walk, I will hold him slowly. I found him very short. When he went to the toilet, he was completely asked for me, there is no toilet.
Where came there? What do you do? The vast majority of volunteers come from Europe, as well as from Japan and Singapore, I didn't encounter volunteers from the United States, and I saw a Indian volunteer, and it was back from Europe. The other half of the volunteers are probably student in learning, and the summer vacation is here, and the other half is mostly employed. What I am surprised is that many doctors come, I will encounter six, all from Europe. There is also a banker that is a branch of Presil, although he doesn't talk, it is also seen, he will come every year, at least two weeks. The young volunteers are often working here for three months. Volunteers have no poverty, in the past, California Governor has served a month, and the tones pretend to not know him, and his work is the same as everyone.
The next day, I found that my work is more, the first is to wash the dishes, the cleaner is lime, it looks a dirty, the patient's bowl is stainless steel, not afraid of this dry lime. However, water will become black water soon. The second work is to wear clothes for patients who take a shower. I found that the patient has more thin, thin, like from the Nazi concentrated camp, it seems that there is no meat.
At any time, the patient will drink water, and our volunteers have given them water, sometimes I have to give them milk, there is a patient who is most troublesome, he thinks I should not give him cold milk, I have to go to find Hot water. The kitchen's kitchen is not a toughe, and the life is, and I am smelled with India. I don't understand what I have done wrong. I have to save a monk. Later, I knew that I shouldn't take the cup of the patient near the food. It's hard to add hot water. He is too hot. I added cold water. He said how there is no sugar, so I know that sugar is there, after adding sugar, he finally satisfied it. Thank you, and call me a good child. I am thinking, this old gentleman must have money. In the past, I have made the warner every day. Now I am abandoned, I have not changed, but because we have to serve the poor, I have to listen to him.
The third work is to wash clothes, boring. In the laundry, some people call me a monk, I want to give medicine to the patient, I am very happy, because this is relaxed and enjoyable, there is a young monk responsible for the drug, after the same, we give a patient to send . So my fourth work is to send medicine.
Delivery to send medicine, a guy came to me, he said "Monk, I am open ambulance, you have to help me carry four remains to the car". " I have hurt my back, I haven't lifted the heavy things, but the monks have to do anything, I have to carry. Fortunately, I have been used in the body, I can't see what they look like.
Before getting on the bus, I cracked a young monk and my peers, because I was not a monk, I didn't understand the local law. In case someone finds me trouble, I can't pay. The monk felt that it was reasonable to go with me.
The monk is 19 years old and is strong. You can know that you can have a family. Otherwise, it will not be so good. He read a year of electric machine in a university, and decided to truss it. The monk is actually a beautiful young man, but there is a birthmark on his face, so that he seems to have a knife on his face. He is the one who is playing the drum in Mass yesterday. He is very outward, always telling jokes. On the way, I want to buy a bottle of Coca-Cola, he said that he can't accept my Coca-Cola, he said that he did not deny the table, and someone had to send him a table, and he did not accept it. He said that his only property is three clothes, a pair of shoes, in case the shoes are broken, it may be waiting for a new to him, he doesn't care, I can walk barefoot. Speaking barefoot, he took his thigh, said the pain quickly: "I have to be a poor in my life, doing me." When he said, a smile is full, happy. I am thinking about this kid. If you don't make a monk, you must have a big batch of girls chasing him. He must have a good day, but he is now nothing, only three suit, but his kind of haha, it seems that he has Have everything.
The crematornament is here, this crematorium has a large house, the house is full of 乞丐, our three people move the body to a charcoal, put it there, when you cremation, we don't know. I feel this seems to be lost, so that I am very sad, there is a body that is behind, I recognize this is the body of a young people, he doesn't eat anything yesterday, a monk is in a hurry, find it. Improved by the British volunteers of Audreyburn, but they also moved the determination to die, and they died yesterday afternoon. Someone held his hand before dying. It is said that he is in the dying home, it will go out, get wandering, come back, the last time, he has lost his fighting, not eating, not drinking, almost no Willing to take medicine, just ask everyone to hold his hand.
The remains are put, we turn around, two large crows are immediately flying, they first use the feet prior to exploiting, and then eat it. The hand of the deceased, because the cloth was opened, I saw that his right hand slowly sagged down and met. Once the cloth is opened, I also saw his face, the two eyes did not be closed, looking at the sky, full of bitter expression. We are all frightened, run back to the crow, I found a big wooden board, cover the body, but the head and feet are still outside.
Although only a few seconds, the child is speechless to ask the bloody expression of the sky, and the big crow comes to the scene, I can't stand it.
After returning, there is another thing waiting for me, some people call me: "Monk, I want you to help", it turns out that we have to lift the garbage, and the garbage contains the clothing of the deceased, and the garbage course is five minutes. No, a bunch of children will come to grab, there are thirty big crows on the garbage pile, and there is a large batch of men and women to find things from the garbage pile.
Poverty, poverty, poverty, this time I really saw the tragic brought about poverty, because everyone's push pull pull, my clothes were completely suffered, I was worn on apron, and the apron turned dirty.
My heart is calm, this kind of scene, before, I only saw it on TV and newspaper, now, living in front of me. Going back to the dying home, a nunish ordering me to go to the church to pray, he said that the monks have gone, I should go. The monks are really, the monk with me is sitting, and the two hands are separated, the head is desperate, and it seems that the expression of the hip smile is completely unable.
and I? I am sitting behind them, I haven't sit still, my tears will come out, I finally learned about Dereis:
"A pure heart will be free to give, freely love until it is trauma."
I have known as the poor to serve, but I always find some happy things. When I serve in prison, I always find some educated young people to be friends, I will never dare to comfort the death penalty, not only afraid to see handcuffs. And your feet, more afraid to accompany them to death, I dare not face the most tragic things in humanity.
Now I am still volunteering, but I serve a group of children in the orphanage, this group of children, the people are being harmful, and they are lively and lovely, and they will not only feel pain, but they will have fun.
Although I also serve the poor, I can't always serve "the poorest" person, I have always been interested in avoiding human truly poor and misfortune. Therefore, although I have given it, I have loved it, but I have never had the experience of "the mind is traumatic", now I know, in fact, I have never really love, I really gave it.
However, in the past 50 years, the comfortable scene suddenly was replaced by these two-hour tragic scene, I remembered the four deceased, one of the low-mouth hands, facing the eyes of Cang Tianwang. At this time, the window is exactly heavy, he is not only rained in the open air, but also by the crow, I really feel sad.
Jesus's bitterness in front of me, I saw "I thirsty" and did a forty years of Christians. Today, I will understand the meaning of "I am thirst" that year, but I dare to claim Christians? When Christ said "I am thirsty", I probably do research in the study room or drink coffee in the cafe.
I will never pray, but I feel that I am talking to Jesus, I have a pain and Jesus chat, and I have a pain and tears. I feel a while, but I feel a kind of spiritual peace. I thank God to give me this chance to lift the body of the dead and to the garbage dump. I feel that I don't seem to live in this life. Looking up, I found that the monk sat next to me, he obviously saw me crying and comforting me.
He said, "Mr., your sweat is stinky, we all eat your smell, you see that the monks are smelling, now I will stay with you, you are more smell than our Indians."
I know that he is comforting me, although I am sweating, the clothes are wet, but it is indeed smelling, but he laughs than the Indian smell, can't default, so I have done him to fight him. A punch.
At that time, we were still in the sacred sacred sacred sacred, and we went to the outside of the sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred sacred. To hear him, his martial arts is better.
He said that other volunteers only wear shorts and T-shirts. Only I wore a shirt and trousers, and the monks wear shirts and trousers. I didn't have a watch at the time. I was mistaken for monks. He said, "Let's come back next time, you must still go to the crematorium, you are most like people." After I heard, I was so comfortable. Before leaving the dying home, I helped to wash the bowl.
At the gate, this monk made a burlap pocket ready to leave, and the pocket wrote MC (Missionaries of Charity). He saw me, saying to me, "I don't come here tomorrow," then he said. " Monk, goodbye.
I am watching his burlap pocket and the cross on his clothes. I envy him, he sees my mood, two hands to say "as long as you continue to sweat, you have a stink of your body, you will be with us."
I also said in two hands "God bless you, we will meet next time, I am afraid it is in paradise." I saw him pick up his sleeves to secretly wipe tears.
The next day, I took a taxi to the airport, and I saw a monk and a Japanese volunteer who took care of a dying old man lying on the street. Today, the old man raised him and abandoned on the street. The monk is calling the taxi, Japanese volunteers, and hold the hands of the elderly. He is a student in the medical school, seeing me, he said, "no hope." Although there may be no hope, this old man knows at least, there is still a concern in the world.
I hated and I had to go back to the taxi and stayed forever.
Although only two days, the experience of dying home made me memorable.
I can't forget the homeless people on the streets of Kol.
I can't forget a little boy with a cup in the ditch.
I can't forget that I have slept in the door of the hotel I live every night, only their two, the biggest top four years old.
I can't forget the patients in the dying home.
I can't forget the young patient, I hope I can hold his hand.
I can't forget the human body is placed on a bunch of open-air coal residues, wild dogs and crows will come to eat them at any time, and the storm will be wet at any time. Their eyes look at the sky.
I can't forget the poor of the clothes near the garbage, and they are different from the wild dogs and crows, no one of the human dignity.
But I also won't forget the blessings of the Dedoramid women, and her kind smile.
I can't forget the monk's unlimited love and patience.
I can't forget that the monks have a feeling of peace of mind when they live in poor life.
I can't forget so many volunteers, what work is willing to do.
I can't forget the gesture of the Japanese volunteer single leg.
Although I saw the tragic side of human beings, I have never seen such a good person. The greatest contribution of Dereis's talents is that she will bring care and love to the most dark corner of human beings. We should be more thanking for how many people are touched, and how many people have become more kind, I should be one of them.
(5) Let the high wall fall down.
Decishamia did not have to go out of high walls.
She can set up a foundation to hire some staff, using computer and media, and struggle to raise money, then find someone to "grate" to the poor.
She can also take a look at the poor during the day, still coming back to Europe's comfortable life at night.
Even her one day a week, the other days serve the rich.
However, she turned into the poor, because she had to hold the poor's hand in hand, with them to death, and never escape the cruel facts of the poor in the world, she not only takes care of India's poor, but also cares about AIDS, recently Many of the high cotton were fry into a disabled, and there was no wheelchair to sit, Dresbeard's talents have personally face this fact.
She is a single horses into the slums, bravely put the abroad's tragic back.
She completely came out of the high wall.
Everyone we have built a high wall in our hearts, we have to live in the high wall, and push hell to the high wall. In this way, we can have no tragic in the pretending people in peace. Although someone is starving to death, we can still eat big drink. Let the high wall fall down, as long as the high wall falls, we can have a wide heart.
With a wide heart, we will see unfortunate people in the world, will hear their pleading "I am thirsty".
Seeing the misfortune of human beings, we will have hot love.
With hot love, we will start to serve the unfortunate people.
Serving the unfortunate people will definitely bring our spiritual trauma,
However, the wound on the soul will certainly bring the peace of mind.
If you are a Christian, you will add a sentence.
Only after this process, we can enter eternal life.
2000.12.4
