The sound is coming out of Mozart's "Audio". 35 years old Mozart always showed the most beautiful side of death to people. However, there is no sweet and transparent in the 21st piano concerto. This time, death is actually, the listener is only moving, no longer fantasy. I want to walk around the street. If the room is packed, you must not shut down, you can still listen to it. A total of 50 minutes aggregate. So leaning on the sofa ...
Then I did a dream, there is a brother in my dreams. I know that I miss him very much, so I decided to write down my brother's story. Little, I wrote it.
One
From a stage of the ancient city, I ran out of a group of children, leading is a boy, and the hand started with a wooden stick, not far from the gate, and even see the hills of the mountain. A whispered in the mouth: "Comrades, rush!" So, the little 小 罗 罗 刷 刷 刷 地 地 那 那.. 刷The boy is my brother.
I said my brother, you will take me, you are your brother, why don't you come to play? My brother said that your girl is old and a boy. I said that my brother will take me to play, wait for me to grow up, I have to be best to you, so good - I have a big posture.
Brother finally took me to play, but also said that the girl will not be old to play with the boy. At that time he was seven years old, I am four years old.
He often adds to me to compete for a certain material. Every time I beg for mercy, then I understand that he can easily be ignored to the grievance, but He didn't. Because he knows, I am his sister. I have never called his name. I always call him shortly. Even if I fight with him, I have died no longer call him, but I have never done it.
Once my brother pulled my beloved doll, I took his glass bullets, so we twisted together. Later, my mother pulled my brother and then taught him: "My brother can't bully my sister."
After my brother goes to school, I didn't fight with me. He said that I am his sister. My mother gave him a few dollars. He took my hand on several stops, and I went to the South Store to buy sugar to eat. The kind of candy is a penny, white paper package, deep yellow color "decreased fruit" sugar. All the way, a steady water that is constantly flowing, I will not be chewed at all, but it is gently containing it. When it is slowly cultivated in the mouth. Every time my brother will give me more, he said that I am his sister, my brother is good to my sister, and the sky is justified.
One to the summer, my brother and I took a shower. If my mother felt that we would send us two points. Let's buy agar gum. We looked at Wang Po with a piece of shake into a small bowl. Then add a little vinegar, put the white sugar, so we will be divided into food, I am more, my brother is less, the big is full.
Soon, I am also met, my brother will go to the collar and write my name. I said my brother, how do I call "small", how do you call "odor"? His nostrils said that Who said that it is my name? That is I nickname. I said, I have to nickname it. Brother said that the girl is not nicknamed.
The brother is especially naughty, often in the outside, come back to the sweat, I will fall, sleep, my mother will chase him, call him to wash, bathed, change clothes, always chase him To school, the hardest is the hardest, often not washed in a few days, and you can smell his "cerebral oil", so the family is joking.
The brother is shaved with a small flat head, wearing a white shirt, back is a military green school bag. My mother helped me tied my little scorpion. I wore my mother to give me a new white dress, carrying the purple bag sent by Grandpa, so that two will hold hands to school. The teacher said that your family is so beautiful. Brother third grade, my first grade. I am three grades in the third grade of my brother. I am a big captain, my brother is nothing.
The class teacher is coming, you have to arrange the seat, the first one asks me: small, where do you want to sit?
I want to sit with my brother, my brother is good.
Brother does not let me sit. I just looked at him in red, and I cried in my mouth. In the end, I still sat in the forefront because I only had half of him.
On the way home, my brother always keeps a certain distance. I asked my brother to hide me, starting to say that he would not be willing to me. Finally, he told me that I am a girl, and the grades are good, and I will give me a discredit. I don't want it, because you are my good brother.
But my brother is still a certain distance in the school, I am very sad.
My brother is often inexplicably sick, and a lot of mom and dad often wants to go to the hospital to see the home. Every time I go home, my father has kept smoking, and my mother and grandmother have run to the temple to burn incense. This has always made me very much.
At the time of the sports class, I accidentally put the volleyball on the window of the school. The inferior glass was broken, I was afraid. My brother is running forward and said it is dry. The class bell rang, my brother is very straight, the teacher splashed in his front ambassador, and the rain is on his body. He drunk a lot. The teacher said some brother, sister, a family, a buddy.
After returning home, I was still awkward by my father. I have never dare to tell my father that is what I did. They all said that I am a child, I'm very obedient, and smart. So I said to my brother! Brother said nothing, who makes you my sister.
At the time of elementary school, my father didn't move my brother and even hit him. There was one time, my brother and my neighbor's children fight, and that child was injured. The father faced the neighbors, even the brother is "dog hybrid," my brother listened to eat and smiled and escaped - I asked brother. Why are you laughing? Brother said that Dad even went to him. I said that it is to give you a focus. At the age of 12, I launched a burn in the middle of the night, and my parents were not at home. The big brother wrapped me with a blanket. In the three nine days, there was no car in the middle of the night, and I was deeply looking for a hospital for an emergency to see a doctor.
My brother is going to step by step. Our shadow is reflected on the road. After a while, it will become short. After a while, the cold tears in the two lines will be smooth, and the taste is bitter and bitter.
I hang up, my brother will accompany it. I hang two tears say, brother! If you are not my brother? I will marry you later. Brother said, silly sister. My brother will always be good to you.
I said brother, you are really my good brother. I put the head in his arms, and I slept in any sleep ...
My brother likes to secretly take the money in my house, and I will always teach a meal after being discovered by my parents. I remember once a cold evening, when I woke up at night, I found that my mother pulled a very thin brother to the balcony, just frozen the night. Another time in the black underground room, I don't give him a meal, let him think about it. I secretly put it from the small window sill from the small window sill to him, and I will help me hungry every time my brother is coming out. Brother said that I am his good sister, I am happy.
My brother and I am graduated in elementary school. After that, I got on the town, and he got a third-year-old, and graduated in junior high school.
In the first three years, my brother was graduated by Dad. The leaders in the school often talk about his smoking fighting, each time they will always take me as an advertisement, because I am first in school. Brother began to intend to ignore me, and I didn't have courage to talk in front of him. Brother is really changed, he is no longer good to me. I hate it, and there will be a lot of troubles after the people grow up. One day, after Dad took a call, his face began gloomy, gradually pale, and then sat on the sofa and smoking. Brother came in from outside. He didn't seem to have quietly, the jacket's button was not detained, and the book bag was hung on the head, a lazy spot that just got up. Let the people who see him are innocent.
The father is big in his brother, saying that he hurts people. Said, my father got angry, took out his authority, gave him a slap: "I am not mistaken?" He taught his tears: "It is not mistaken." Snapped! It's a slap: "I don't think wrong?" "I don't recognize it." Hey! "Not bad?" "I don't recognize it." Hey! "Still noticeable?" "" Just notice wrong, it is not mistaken. "Hey, brother couldn't help but hurt, and angry and grievably cried, while crying, shouting:" You are not My father, you don't match my father ...
Dad said: "You have to die in the morning, it is better to die early." I hid in the room, crying: "Dad! Brother! Please don't quarrel, you don't quarrel ..."
There is a little less talking between Dad and my brother, and I don't want to ignore me. I often go home late in the middle of the night. Even overnight. Mothers often sneak tears, many times I want to persuade my brother, but I don't dare to say anything. I know that my brother is far away from me.
I looked at the family photo. Mom is dressed in a brunette new cotton, and Dad is light in Zhongshan. They stand side by side, brother standing in front, and I am in my mother. It seems that it is not close, but happiness. Make me impressive is my brother's eyes on the photo. The eyes are full of brightness, and I have a big difference I have seen now.
I got a high school, my brother got a job.
The brother's chin's beard thrive in a quiet voice, his only way to give it a blow to blowing every day, when you have time, you will scrape it straight to glitter.
Brother began to drink, he said that young people love to drink, although there is no alcohol. There is not much time to drink, and the number of drunken times is a lot. But he is not the kind of person who loves wine. He will not be polite, and think that drinking should drink, how to come, everyone is going to evolve? And I don't like to force others to drink, if you want to drink, pick up the cup and irrigation is, hate the cumbersome gift etiquette. It is because of his bold, in the middle of the reputation, even my high school knows that he is such a person. He is not very good, the wine is not good, and it will cause a lot of things after alcoholism.
Gao Erbai, my brother was automatically dropped. I don't do anything at home, I don't have to work all day. Dad couldn't see it, and said he said, he packed some clothes in him. At that time, my mother pulled his hand, smell, don't you go? The brother didn't listen to my mother, stopped a taxi, I won't know.
Mom often hides in the room secretly flowing tears, which makes me look very sad, I also want my brother. Later, I learned from his friends to live where he lived, it was a brother who was blended.
The house is a bit like a barlock, there are two gates, from the first door, a paint in the daytime house. "笃" knocked on the door.
"Who" The voice of my brother is very nervous.
I am not awkward, the sound of the lights in the door, then the second door opened, my brother explored: "Who?" With the light in the house, I saw him wearing a thin cotton sweater, door Put a pair of women with high heels. "I!" I came out this time, he listened, I was busy with "", I opened a dozen points to open the door again, this time he is wearing neat.
In these ten minutes, I stand at the door, my heart is like a knot, my brain has only one idea, my brother is asleep like a TV.
When I came out, I like a smoke, he asked me how to know this.
I said brother! Are you going home? Mom I miss you very much, I ... I miss you very much. I low below, I haven't said this for him for a long time.
My brother could pay my a few words, let me go home, he will go back in a few days.
A few days later, my brother who made a thing was back. Dad is invincible to exercise the chair: "Little rabbit scorpion, you can come back, see that I don't break your legs -" This time Dad didn't play.
My brother is smashed, and I am glaring. I can't wait, the chair stopped in the half air. Dad didn't play, but suddenly he kneelted in front of him, red and angry, said: "I will give you a kneel today - after, no matter You are ... "After finishing, I suddenly on the ground.
Dad gone, no one can accept this fact, he is alive by my brother. Dad gone, my brother didn't cry. Dad said that men have tears, I have been remembering. He will look at Dad's portrait, face the guilt of my face, but I don't hate him, just think he is getting more and more far from me.
My brother stayed quietly in my own room. I suddenly left my family in seven days and ran to a very distant city. I had no news for a while. No one knows what he thinks in that seven days.
After walking from the sad shadow of the father's death, I started working hard at the high school. Mothers and schools put the expectations on me, so that I have a lot of pressure, sometimes I want my father, and my brother ...
That year, I was willing to enter the Fudan University. In the hot August, I took a tuition fee given by a big suitcase and my mother. I have always been very clear about the economic situation at home. Since my father died, I almost broke the source of economic, and my mother was only an occasional helper accessories to hold meager income. These 8,000 yuan? Mom said that she is raised. Said that this time is dropped in the eyes of the mother. I took a bus to the north, and I was full.
I have stood in this school. Riding a bicycle every day in this campus that you can't see the sun everywhere. Summer passed, silent. So, autumn is coming, it is also silent. Finally, the leaves on the tree struggled or fell, so that the sun took the opportunity to drill. I like to take a book to sleep on a piece of lawn, it is very quiet, except for some modified whisers indirectly caress the lawn. Sunlight is a bit sinking when you are on your body, like a little emotion in the season.
Occasionally I think of my mother, I will give her a call. There is also my brother. Is your brother? Where did he go? I really miss him.
I started reading another book for Yu Hua and Wang Xiaobo, refused the mediocre cheap love game, realized the pain and pleasure brought about this world, my enthusiasm is like the water droplets evaporated by the sun in the summer, I have already disappeared.
The girl in the dormitory, the boyfriend changed another, once again, whether she is still a family, she is, she wants to cry.
I didn't have a snow last year. In the dry cold air, we have been in a hurry. There are several long dragons waiting for water before the boom in the school, which will be said to be more than one hundred meters when they are in an unprecedented situation.
The second year, the gloomy sky has raised some silver, but I sneak into the ground, and I left a small and slight shadow, and the palm of the palm was opened. In the palm of it. When I was sitting in bed next night, I am going to "to love crazy" in the shop, I'm going to have a mess with a fascinating new roller hair. "I am falling in love," Si said. In order to prevent her unhappy nose and tears elegantly throw in my bed, I immediately found a pile of crumpled paper towels and handed her. "I am really uncomfortable, it is difficult to die. I thought he was serious, I didn't expect him to be a game." The tears of the West a dripping. This is not the first time in West. She is easily injured, but it is easier to re-invest. The air here has turned Western into a pure and unsatisfactory, and often warfare. So I used to take her first in my arms as before, but I was het by her tears.
Sick asked which type of boy I like. I am out of mouth, like my brother ... ...
Later, I met a boy who loved my. I wrote another love letter. Although I don't like the person, I am very satisfied, not to mention that I often have good words, I can eat a mushroom dismint from time to time. Or the palace burst, then I want to let go, but don't put it until the boy wrote the fifteenth blond book. It is not coming, it is. If you count, if you don't have a day, you don't want to die, just send me a pen who breaks the case, saying it is to write love books, be a commemoration. When I interact with him, I will always think of brother.
Mom asked me about my brother on the phone? I told my mother, I don't hate my brother, I miss him very much ... I have been thinking about ...
One day, I organized the clothes in the dormitory, and the West ran over and said that the handsome guy was waiting for me in the teaching building.
I saw a man on the window of the corridor, with the left hand in the trousers, the right elbow is supported on the windowsill, the sleeplery index and the middle finger clamp a cigarette, and the white smoke is yelied by his nostrils. Out, in the top of the head, I found a circle, I found my own heart, I have been circled, and I have a clean and clean, and a pen is not left. This faint embarrassing circle turned, swayed until it was scattered, dissolved into the blue sky ... I looked at the warning sign of "ban smoking" on the wall, inexplicably, my heart A feeling of distressing.
When this strange back turned, my breath almost stopped, he was a distant brother who did not face three years. That is a ripe man who still maintains a quiet, melancholy, self-esteem, a fluffy, yellow, has a swollen eyes and drooping, a tall slim man.
My brother is very embarrassed to look at me. He said: "Little, are you okay?" - Brother! I am so sorry!
I finally couldn't help but hugged him. Tears have filled the whole face. I said my brother, I miss you very much, my little is always thinking about you ...
I took my brother to play throughout Shanghai and took many photos taken. I have never been so happy in 21 years. Brother told me that he returned home, and she took her home. He found a job in his hometown and is a Chinese driver. Let him support him in the future. I am very happy, because the old brother finally came back. My brother is officially married, and it is the woman who is sleeping with my brother in a small room. The brother is talking about him, and he is not married. Because I am studying, I have not participated in their wedding. I think, brother will be very happy with her.
In 2000, the brother's daughter was born, he gave her name called Lily. It is a very cute girl, brother said that she is like a child.
After graduation, I found a job in a foreign-invested company in Shanghai. Every day I grab the coat in the last few minutes, and the right hand was packed with the briefcase. In the closing sound of "ping", I started running. The 口 膏 香 香 冲 冲 冲 冲 到 到 径 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 地 着 地 地 着 着 地 口 着 地 口 口 着 口 空 着 着 着 空 着 空 着 空 着 着 着 空 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 着 空 着 水I can't stop the speaker, like a child, call for the early bus. Every time I go to work, after a shop door, I will have a hovered, sleepy man, don't talk, take a seat on the three-wheeled truck, as if all the three-wheeled driver knows him, knowing him Where is it? I remembered my brother.
The fast rhythm of the city is like the rain drops, and it is necessary to face the paper and entertainment. I always think that I am not a strong woman? I can't do a woman's thing, but the boss will take a little shot my shoulder and smile and say: "I believe you can do it." Then I will give me some particularly important things, but he will never I know that this light is almost crushed my bones, so I suffocated. But I am a girl who is winning.
I will call home every weekend, listen to my mother's voice, listen to my brother's voice, listen to Lili's voice ...
Life has been continuing and works every day. Mother called: "Hey, it is not small, I should find a boyfriend." I said: "Mom, I know, I know! I will take home to see you ..."
On the evening night, the rain fog was in the cold and whistle, and the old days of the face was overwhelmed, and the heart was heavy in people's heart, and the air seems to be floating. Mom suddenly called and said: The big brother is gone ...
The car gave birth to a gray sky, along the way, the bus on the bus, a desserted song, it seems to be dedicated to me, I sit in the last row of passenger cars alone, close On the eyes of the eyes, the tears are suddenly lower. Good end, how do you gone?
Mom finally told me that my brother has been sick. It is a congenital heart disease interval. There is a small hole between the patient's left and right ventricles. The arterial blood in the left ventricle flows through this small hole to the left ventricle, so that the patient's heart is overloaded, Time is long, the right ventricular venous high pressure is flowed to the left ventricle, and the patient lost the operation time and there is a danger of life. From medical practice, children who have been suffering from harsh generally do not have adulthood, and they have the possibility of attacking, and there is a danger of life.
But my brother lived to adults, this is a miracle. I finally know why my brother is often sick when I am young? I finally understood why my brother would suddenly fall in junior high school? Because he knows that he will die at any time ...
My brother is a driver, and when the heart attack is being driven. He first stopped the car to the side of the road, exhausted to pull the manual brake gate, then he opened the door, let the passengers safely under the car; finally, put the engine out of the fire, ensure the safety of the vehicle, finished these, He stopped breathing on the steering wheel.
Let's go to the funeral home, in the funeral home, I saw the brother turned into a bunch of ashes. After an hour, when the staff scanned the bone on the cement floor, I felt that life is so incompetent, life Actually, this kind of wonderful-lived, smiled, smiled, it became so humble, and the remains of the person can also sweep with a broom.
During the incineration, my heart is like a bit of pain. I have clearly listened to a bit of fragmentation, and the whole person became desperate and desperate ... After the death of the big brother, the mother often sits a few hours. Before the window, I looked at the clouds in the sky. I saw the pair of sad eyes.
In order to be with your mother, I gave up Shanghai's work and went home to a low salary unit.
Brother died for a while, I walked into my mother's room, when I looked up the light, I found that my mother sat in the dark silently silently. The mother is the kind of calm, the inner world is very abundant, and the unusual is weak. My mother told me that my tuition fee was given home, and he often pays money to pay for it. During the outside working, he only had a letter. He said that he is very sorry, I am sorry for my father, I am sorry for my sister. I feel that I have a very guilty. As for what he is doing outside? He has not mentioned, just saying that it is not illegal.
There are three hardships in life, young, middle-aged, old, and white-haired people send black hair. Mom has a lot of old ages in a few months, and a person's death. For a family, more people or less people, it is never a number of concepts, lost a person who has existed, meaning that all. Mom always pulled my little hand, kept rubbing, I am afraid that I will go to her.
I walked into the room of Lily, I found that she was sleeping in the bed of parents. The corner also hanged with tears. They looked up and the windows were a wind and sunny. The full autumn sun shrouded in the country. The world is so beautiful, peace, and she will lose forever. Father.
Fives
Big Brother has passed more than half a year, and my family is filled with a touch of sadness. This feeling is like I face a brown sky blue curtain cloth.
I met a boy, and he broke his uniform brunette reflected his inner wild wild. There is also the eyes, the spilling of the eyes is not happy, let my heart jump.
He grows very much like my brother.
