2004-06-28
I would like to commemorate my childhood and hometown I will never come back.
My memory is from Honda. In fact, my birthplace is Changshu in Jiangsu. I am in this Jiangnan town to four years old, but it is strange that I have no childhood impression on this beautiful water town. I have encountered a lot of embarrassment for many years, and many kinds of love my relatives have been sad. I spent a long time to adjust my mentality, just to make you no longer have a sense of guilty, I want to use the fate, I have more persuasive, my five elements are the soil, so I didn't demonstrate and Jiangnan. Water-growing country is no longer, but it belongs to the small town in the edge of the desert.
For a long time, I have always believed that when I left, my tears quietly fell, so that I am unfolbened with this city. Because of that kind of feeling, I didn't have experience again. When I didn't realize what I haven't realized, I have been covered with my face until my father called me, I found it, I turned my head and I didn't want them to see. I am still very happy to be high before, I suddenly feel that my heart is empty, it seems to be hollow, I have no components, and I have to make me difficult to balance. I opened my eyes on the road to the car away from the field, and I wrote down the direction and every route, because that is the only way I came back. More than once, I imagine, will it take anything, what do we want to take back? I will remember the road. After the car opened for a long time, I cacked, I won't, turn back, the small town and my childhood. Unable emptiness and bitter tears are the final mark.
My brother is born in Honda. When I was brought to this city, he left his parents, gave birth to my Jiangnan Xiaocheng, my mother's hometown, this change, created me and his life Differences. At that time, I just passed the difficult period. He is only limited to the days of the parent's description, just like they tell me, how often is a common loved ones.
Parents are going to the countryside, support the border generation, when I go, their respective production and construction arms have just been disbanded, they are arranged in the city of South Xinjiang to settle down. The father made a technician in the agricultural machinery factory, and the mother went to work in the local department store. (To be continue)
2005-04-08
I always wanted to write a text about Hetian - my hometown. I have written a story about my thoughts and describe my feelings for more than half a year. It is a good start, but I think there is thousands of days during the day. , Think more, there is a feeling that I can't control it, how can I have failed to be absent? I have always had a sense of oppression. These days want to open, the things in memory will work with me one day, before this, what is this? As long as I am willing to write, write, write more or less, is not so important! I want to ... this may be a good response to the laws of nature.
The words retired.
Just arrived in Honda's days was very blurred in memory, but before in Changshu, it was an exposed film and became a blank. At that time, we lived in the family affair of the agricultural machinery factory, and the environment where living in that time was simply slums. There is only one room in the house, a square of twenty-ten-square meter, all the things in the family are piled inside, the center of the house is a coal furnace, and the smoke pipe from the side extends quickly to the roof. The 90-degree elbow is re-through-to-door, and it is passed from the window glass above the door. Many years later, when the course of drawing principles, the teacher explained the plane expanded drawing of the elongation joint, I always remembered the chimney of the year. At that time, I also remember not very clear, I just remember very messy. Because the doors and windows are on the same side, the other three sides are walls, and the room is also very dark during the day, and there is only a forty watt-woven light hanging on the center to provide lighting, many winter. In the night, such light is accompanied by me. Most of the time, my event space is outside, everyone has used a small yard with a bamboo fence, in fact, it can't be called it as a yard, only three rooms, in addition to a walkway, other places The firewood and winter raw coal. Outside Chai Gate is a row and the same bungalow, there are about ten meters in the middle space. When I went, I used a few towering trees on the air, I don't know if it is a birch. I didn't know why, the tree was cut off, leaving only a few stumps, and after a while, the stump was also excavated, and there was a deep and wide pit on the ground. Winter's Washing Water often pour in, long time, there is always a solid ice.
Our row has lived on three, the opposite is similar, the door of the two rows of houses is relatively, living is a unit of employees, everyone is very familiar, there is no status between each other and the gap between the rich and the poor, I often In the left neighborhood, I like to go to the native uncle and opposite people from Beijing. There is a gramophone in the former, one of the four-party boxes, top a big speaker above, is the kind of "big wrist" Rido superb, this thing makes me feel amazing for a long time, then I remembered it. The song is the "Night of the Military Port", the night of the military port, quiet ... I like it to the door because there is always some novel toys, for example, a small person in the middle of the two wires is in the middle of the swing, just like the screensaid inside XP Plus. The reason why there will be a toy because this family has a big little girl than my big age, my parents still remember her little name for many years, called "Xiao Yishang", probably this sound, then I don't know because we moved or It is that she moves back to Beijing again, and she has no audience. To put it, my brother has played with her for a long time. But now, I always feel that he is a face of a face. In the summer night, everyone likes to take the stool to sit on this empty chat. I am with the little girl to catch a salap or scared each other, screaming, chasing the game, tired when I am tired. Parents On the legs, listen to them, some things I don't understand, I don't understand.
According to my parents, I was crying because I was crying, so I sent me to study. Anyway, no matter how long I got to Xinjiang, I started to go to the city three small, then we call it anti-Emperor primary school. It is preparatory class when you start. So far I can still make a clear understanding of the school's pattern and classroom distribution, and even surrounding flowers. Some time ago I used to find a map of the field on the Internet. After many efforts, I finally found a urban traffic map. When I saw the "three small" small red dots, I was long. Tone.
It is still there, waiting for me ... Waiting for me to look back. (To be commitue) 2005-04-12
I miss the city - Xu Wei I miss the city is already dusk, why I always go to you. I have given me happiness, I also gave me a trauma, I have given me despair. I am in distant city, strange people, I feel your distant sadness, my fantasy ... When I passed, I didn't blow away, the city is too thick, how many rain, never, rushing away you That heavy sadness, your sadness, like my despair, as long. When I prepare the class, it seems that there is nothing in the class, more impressive is the music class, a surname
Xu's female teacher taught us that her daughter is also with us, called Xu Fang. The teacher taught us some shortcomings and sang more. For the vast majority of people, this is a very boring thing. But whenever I went to class, I saw the teacher with her black leather box, we will always be excited. When the class is half, the teacher will open the box, there are a lot of instruments, scorpions, sand hamarts, woodfish, triangle iron ... still have some, I can't call the name. The teacher will give these instruments to the most serious children. My favorite is a triangular iron, knocking, a crisp and long voice, has been in my ear ... Unfortunately, everything is chaotic, I should shoot with the beat, everyone is all Hu Tap, I want my own musical instrument to make the biggest voice, the teacher will always stop, correct us, but as long as the start, everything is still old.
Teacher Xu used the organ accompaniment to the organism of the classroom to teach us to sing, she bounces very powerful, comparing, I prefer the sound of triangular iron. Sometimes she will also bring a accordion, one side is like a piano button, and there are still many small black round buttons, when playing, but also in the wind box, I am at the time. In the eyes, it is the most complex musical instrument in the world. During some time, a young big sister came to her class, she left a long shawl, whenever she was completed, she would let us rank, send us a piece of each person. Sugar, more than a dozen children will be very embarrassed, put the team of the team. I like her square white sugar, always take it in the hands, I can't eat it once, while walking, the sweetness, accompanied by childhood memories, so far, it is not released ...
2005-04-13 I didn't have something wrong, but my physique is not very good. In fact, it is true now. The most prominent performance cannot eat greasy things. Whenever the mother holds the meat to my bowl, then this meal, I will drag to the last one, when the parents are eaten, I will take them. , Throw the meat into the clip of the cabinet and wall. Every time I cleaned your health, my mother always swept out a pile of meat, and I also had a "bamboo shoots". I thought about it today, I always feel very strange, when I didn't know if I changed a place, or then deal with "post"? Anyway, my trick was very thoroughly seen by my mother, the result is that I can only look at her anger every time I have a tear. In fact, there is a lot of things. For example, don't like to eat apples, just dig a pit in the vegetable field of the yard, buried Apple, and then dug up by the mother when they gave the vegetables, the result ... T_T is related, plus My parents often take a smile, "sheep has a few legs" problems, so that I always doubt now, my IQ is not much more than A. "Sheep has a few legs" makes me memorable, time is about eight or two years, remember that the scene is on the train, I am sitting in the sleeper, I don't know who asks me, I will answer "two", everyone laughs . So my parents inspire me, "There are a few?", "Two", "there are several?", "Two", "There are a few?", I looked at the surrounding eyes. Said, "... two". The people on the side are about to laugh. Parents are a helpless expression to rock heads. And I am, fearful look at the response of the surrounding people, tears to swall in my eyes. Suspected, but in fact, in elementary school, my achievement is still very good, this situation has been kept in high school, maybe because the thought is more than a single reason. Later, after I opened it, the sex is wild, and the results are also under the rivers. This is the mother's summary of my mother. In fact, my own feeling is that my intelligence is the line of steps, and there will be a short period of leap. "Universal Evening" and "Da Zhi Ruo Yu" are I like to describe themselves. During the university, I have not made with the actual age, "I am too old" is a few damage to my words. But who knows how many times in the elementary school use the words "naive" in my term, harm that I have been worried about this word will be with me for a lifetime? At that time, my mathematics achievements were quite good, doing the application questions, often the questions, just wrote to the blackboard, I have an answer on the draft paper under the bottom. To this end, Zhang Ling, taught me mathematics very surprised.
Teacher Zhang gives me a deep impression, not just because she is my
