Zhang reporter made a picture to the camera, and the camera immediately gave me the machine. I know that from now on, every sentence may appear in front of the whole country. I thought here, I quite a waist. Zhang reporter said: You are nervous, we are documentary, how to talk, how to say, don't report. He is sitting and sitting opposite, starting to ask: Are you laid-off? I am so much up with a little tone: It is a laid-off personnel, but it is not terrible! Xiao Zhang also asked: Look at your style, your past occupation may be very good, do you have a loss? I replied: it is a sense of loss, but it is not terrible! Xiao Zhang put a hand and said: No, don't take it, let's talk. What levels have you been in the past? I asked: Do you talk about how much money you earn for a month? Xiao Zhang said: How can I get six or seven? I am not shocked: Oh, 67,000? There is also a little red envelope is eight thousand. Almost 100,000 a year, the middle class, you can still know what is "days"? Xiao Zhang slightly appeared, saying: not so much. . . You will ask me, I ask you. You came to such a publication for job search, or I didn't feel uncomfortable. I nodded: It is not coordinated. He asked: Will you know more rationality in the future job? I replied: Yes, you are right. But the money in the wallet is getting less and less, and it is not reasonable. Xiao Zhang also asked: What belief is supporting you bravely? I shot a suit pocket: money, it's almost. Xiao Zhang said: It seems that you have encountered some kind of dilemma, how do you estimate your foreground? I said: Confidence, no grasp. Xiao Zhang said: Have you heard that the insulture song? It is "from the beginning to" that. I said: Is that you do? Xiao Zhang is a little excited to say: Yes, it is very encouraged? I said: I want to come from my head. I have to let me re-ever, or this "day" I can't move. At this time, the reporter editor of the house was attracted by our dialogue and slowly surrounded. That camera has already opened the machine, and I am not alone. Xiao Zhang also asked: What do you think is what you need now? I said: It is a cheese. The reporters laughed, and Xiao Zhang also didn't laugh. He joked: So who is moving your cheese? I said: I don't ask this, I will ask why I don't send cheese. Everyone laughed, Xiao Zhang said: OK, my father, you are really fun, let's get here. I said: Is this? When is it? Xiao Zhang said: a week. I got up with him, and I greeted the Bi Sir: I should rest, I'm going. At this time, a middle-aged person came from a middle-aged person, and the pierpered truth, the waist was tied, and he did not see him. He reached out and held a grip and said: Old comrades, you can don't be discouraged, you have to live. Several young reporters also followed. Xiaobi said: This is our boss, total editor. I said to the editor: Ye, I know. The meaning of life is to live. But don't give cheese, how do I have to live? The door of the editorial department is closed behind me. I know, the last door in Beijing is also close behind me. I have already come to the edge of the cliff.
When I came back, I passed the International Trade Center, I got the car. Going in, sitting on the elevator up top floor, found a door to the rooftop. A cleaner wearing overalls is taking the floor. I asked her: Can you open it? I am almost the same as the uniforms of the building staff, the cleansters regard me as the head of the property, and she nodded and said: Can open. I said: You open, I went up. Waiting for myself, I am so busy with you. The cleaning worker is busy, open the door. I picked up and went to the rooftop. Although not the highest building in Beijing, it is also one of the highest buildings. Above, the hard blows come. I wrapped around the water tower and went to the edge of the wall. The nine city wind smoke in Beijing will take the bottom. In April, the green is full, Xishan is green, a pair of "Qilu Qing is not unable". I am in the moment, as if it is brought here to Meriffis. At the foot, the city is horn, all beings are like ant. A thought in my chest: Sunshine is so good, the world is so bright, and the tears and pains in the underground are actually negligible. People's life, should not have other significance, he only has a purpose, you should use all your strength to climb up, even if you mortgage the soul to the devil. Two months, my actions have proved my stupid. The fact is that once the soul is handed over, it will never redeemed possible. I can't redeem myself, and I can't save others. I just jumped into the abyss in a white. In the current, the Changhe has been broken, the road has come to the end, when can I return to this high place, and then look at life to my smile? The past has been far away from me, which is surrounded by me, only sneer and compassion. People will not believe that someone will abandon the villa sedan, just for an abstract belief. People will not believe that there are people who don't put money in one thing in this world. I don't believe that someone will endure others more painful than I. I gave the money to the small Song and Dulu, they knew it in the future, I don't know, I have nothing to do. I just do the final stupid redemption: use your own small actions to maintain human honors. Many of them need it, I can only give this. This is just letting me, and they will not lose the last confidence of this species. The sun is hung, the air of the sky is moving with my clothes, and the tie is blown. I am standing on the wall, I don't want to move, I really want to shout like Faust: Let everything stopped!
I looked at the city under the feet. 12 years ago, in Beijing, there was a moving city over a high-rise house near Ethnic Palace. At that time, there were still many trees in Beijing, and the fields were together. Now, countless white buildings from the ground. Cut the green, these buildings, after a hundred years, how many is it worth reserved? People are working hard, but this effort is better to make the world be ugly? The same truth, a child, in his process of young and young, young and young, his heart is getting more and better, or it is more and more despicable? If it is the latter, why do people still grow? People, why can't you meet without? Why can't you use friendly as a goal? Why do we have to see some people are destroying, some people are far better than us, can we get happiness? On the roof of the International Trade, there is countless question mark, and the mountains have turned into the sea and hit my chest. I remembered what I just had just now, he asked me to stay. I certainly know: Staying, is a gesture. However, what do I take? Tatting very much, what does it make? When I walked down the roof, my chaotic heart chest is like gradually clarified. I know my ending, know how it will be a home. A person's flesh and blood, can't stay in front of a large substitute like this city. If you want to stay, there is only a powder bones! In the evening, I finally finished reading a thick "Faust". I was a smooth and hard cover for a while, put it on the shelf. This book, with me, spend the lowest ceremony in my life, like a loyal friend. I bid farewell to it. In this life, I can't read it again. The years of the basement, I will finally bury it deeply. I won't let it have a thorough cold. This basement, it may continue to have a century, and I know it exists. However, let it bury under the thick soil layer, I will never want to re-dig it. Night, I heard the door of the next door. Two Tangshan guys came back. Drag the tired footsteps, weak voice, make the corridor more lonely. After a while, I suddenly heard a scream of the next door. I jumped out of bed and rushed out of the door. The people in other rooms have also been alarmed, and the door is opened on the corridor. It is Tangshan guys. Push the door, I saw, the little paralyzed fell on the ground, pale her face as paper. The big one kneeling on the ground, grabbing his shoulders, calling him: Brother, what is you? You can't do this, you wake up, wake up. I rushed in, asked big: What happened? The big cry and said: I don't know, I can't do it, I look at the ground. I went down and touched his forehead. I tried to test the breath. The people who came to see the lively said: Come, take your hand, send hospitals. Xiao Song squeezed out of the people and said: The door is the hospital, and he carries him. The big kneel did not move on the ground, hesitated: Hospital? we. . . Xiao Song suddenly fired: 嗐, what? Let him die here? I nodded and wiped a snot and stood up. The crowd made a road. People seven hands and eight feet, let the small Song back. That small, two hands arms are unable to stop life.
In the emergency room, the doctor did not panic, let people put the little on the bed, and then rushed us to the corridor. The big is always crying, curled up on the bench, and the head is deeply buried in the knee. For a while, the boss, Luhua and Luo also came. The boss straight: blaming the big: how to make it, you will know how to die! Luo Lulu has a boss: You said less, people like to die? In the hospital hallway, he returned the big depression. People or sitting or standing, the heart is like a soil. Occasionally, the nurse walks out, there is no expression, all the eyes have been following her. The small Song Song is in the door, and someone will make the door to look forward to the door. I dizzy, I have an illusion, and my ear clearly sounds the drip in the hotel corridor. I know, this is the voice of life, like blood, a drop of dripping. After a while, the doctor came out, unveiling masks: Who is the family of the guy? I stood up and said: We are his colleague. how is he? The doctor said: The problem is not big, serious nutrients, positive infusion. She said with a single child saying: Observing it again, go to pay the money. The big hesitation took the list, looked at it, and looked at the doctor. The doctor urged said: Go. I took a list and took a breath: small rescue! The cost is several. Xiao Song grabbed the list and looked at it. I said: Can I can't get it. The doctor said: How much is this? Creating diseases can't be sure! Xiao Song said: We can't take these money. The doctor said: Seeing that you are not like public, if the public is rescued. Go, first take a point. Wearing oil is slippery, no money! After that, I went to the house. The big lament said: What should I do, what should I do? I am awkward, I don't even hear him asking me. The boss is just sighing. The small Song knocked on the door and the doctor probed. Xiao Song said: Doctor, I don't sell blood? The doctor is somewhat angry: What is joke, we are not blood stations! At this time, Luo was crowded to say: I have gotten it. What kind of men are you selling? Do you want to die? She bowed a few big tickets from the pocket, and he went to the doctor: go to pay, this is the money of the old lady selling *! Take it, enough? The voice of Lulu is very sharp, very high, and it is divided into the dull in the hospital corridor. People are all silent. Early the next morning, I came to the ward with Xiao Song, and the little was awakened, and I sat in the bedside. I heard us, a big spirit, wake up. Stand up: Two big brothers, last night. . . He can't say it. I said: You don't worry, let your brother recharge. You have to work. Big say: I think we will go back in a day or two. When you hear it, struggle and say: Brother, you can't go back. The big shook head and said, listen to brothers, let's go back, go back! Brother, this place. . . His eyes closed, bite his mouth, and tweehed twice.
The Tangshan Brothers have been separated, which makes all people feel sad. The spiritual world of the basement ethnic group has been revised. Outside the grass, the face inside is dark yellow. The boss is bored to put a poker on the counter, and read it: unfavorable year, unfavorable year. He bought a monitored small color TV to Luhua. Luhua no longer looked at "Reader" magazine, holding color TV all day, smiling while looking at the melon, smiling while looking, there is a young woman's charm. On the afternoon of a day, I was sitting in the yard, Ruhua ran, showing me: Come and watch TV, I see you! It turned out to be the film of the "Day" column. Luhua, the boss and me, the screen was confidently after watching the show. The tablet name is "bitter". When the reporter is in the tablet, I especially use a desolate music. The camera is also very interesting, and I have stood alone standing on the window. Staring at the ginkgo. Finally, when I walked out of the gate of the editorial department, it was actually a back of the old man. There was a violin that came to send me away. After the film was over, the boss took a breath, and said to me: I can't think of you is also a suffering man! Luhua asked: Your friends who drive, no one to help you? I said: I don't need them. Luhua asked happily: then do you find a job? I said: No, I have to go. Luhua and the boss looked confused me, didn't ask again. In the evening, Lulu knocked on my door, after opening the door, she took out a package from behind him. I invited her to sit, she smiled: I can't sit, it is not affected. I have gave you something, you don't think too much. She took a half bottle of wine from the bag, put it on the shelf, said: Drinking the wine, more than a thousand, you have nothing to drink, don't get rheumatism. She fell in the bag again, and she was a variety of famous brand cigarettes. There were half-box, with a whole box. Luo said: I will give you, see the smoke you usually smoke, even the migrant workers are not as good, don't take the lungs. I think of what I have a cake to Tangshan boy, and I will be hot. Lulu said: Listen to Luhua, you have a TV. On the TV, will it be ahead? I really seem to have a lot of words at this moment, but I can't say it, just say: Fast, fast! Looking at me, I asked: Teacher, you are. I toughly swallowed and patted her shoulders and said: Child, I don't care, you should go out early. Lulu smiled and said, wait until my eyes are cured, it will be bold. That night, I was insomnia, and I went to Luo to say that "I'm going to go out", the face on the face. I am awake, my "that day" really is about to come. My house is about to expire, and my meal has not been left. The twisted day is within easy reach. In front of a huge monster, I completely lost the resistance, completely lost the qualifications of the subject. In this highly commercial metropolis, my assets, except for those supplies and clothing, they will be reduced to "0". I don't know how many people have embarrassed embarrassment. This is boundless, to swallow all my past, now the huge abyss of the future. In the past, any pressure did not make me gantly abandon my belief from my heart, but today, this huge sample was forced me to bury my own ideals. On the morning of April 17, in two hours, I played a call and received a call. These two calls indicate that my destiny is going to go immediately.
I called a phone call from Hainan's boss. In a minute, we didn't say anything. Later he said: How? If you can't do it. Your office, your house is not moving. If you can come back, you will come back early, you are not there, the office is chaotic. Come back first, I will give you the toll. after. . . Oh, I saw it again. After two hours, I received a call from the editor of "Contemporary Title". He said: All members of our editorial department have seen "days", young reporters, and me, I have especially admired you. I decided to hire you, start a little low, try three months, will mention again. You look. . . I don't answer immediately. Editor-in-Chief also said: You can don't misunderstand, I am not a grate, I am too sympathetic, it is not easy! I said that it is not a grate, it is sympathy, it is indeed sympathy. I think I want to say: Thank you, I will reply you tomorrow you can? Editor-in-Chief is very happy: Ok, I am waiting for your letter, I believe you can do it. I notified the small SME and Lulu, I invited them to eat in my room. I went to the Inner Mongolian restaurant, and I watered a few dishes and spread the newspaper to the ground and took out the wine brought back. In the evening, there were contrary to what everyone sat. Two people should first ridicule each other. I said: Today you have stopped civil war, I will go, please come talk. The two were shocked, and they were more happy. Xiao Song said: Go back to Hainan to be old? Lulu said: Isn't it? Is it the TV station to be you? I said: Tomorrow can be fixed. Don't say this, let's drink, I want to talk to you, I'm not easy, think about it. Xiao Song said: What is it? Going out a counted, we are happy to be happy. Lulu has a good wine, and the three people have taken a cup. Lulu looks at me, there is a sparkling tear in the eyes: Teacher, you see this wine, red, this is blood, now we drink your own blood! Xiao Song said to me: The old teacher wants to go, what is it? I saw two people, my heart is sad, I want to adjust the atmosphere, say: I. . . After I am, you must do a good job in unity. Lulu suddenly put down the wine, looking at me: Teacher, do you really have to go? I nodded. Lulu is low, and I have to bear it. The small Sinter is not right, busy playing haha saying: Today is a big days, the old is always high. In the future, my Niu Zhizheng got up, I went to Hainan to pick you up. Luo looked up, it was already tears, she said with wine, trembled: Teacher, no matter where you are, don't. . . Don't forget the Lulu! Said to drink one, then, rush to my shoulders cry. When the small SME is also red, I am looking at my eyes. After the emotion is calm, the small Song said: 100 years to repair the same boat, we are the fate of a hundred years. Old, if you go to Hainan, I will send you to the airport. If you go to the TV station, I will send you to the gate of the TV station. Let's friends, in the future, still friends. I said: In the future, I can't say it, I have a common friend, I am difficult to have a total of friends. Xiao Song said: How is this possible? I am expensive, I will pick you back to Beijing.
Lulu said: Teacher, almost you are dry, go to daughter, how good! I sighed, said to Luo: Children, will sing "Du Shi Niang"? Lulu said: will. I said: I like to listen to "Du Shi Niang", the teacher is going, you sang a one. Luo said, promised, sang. "If you are afraid of cold, you will talk to the ten niles. I will sew clothes for you ..." At this moment, there is a spring integration in the cottage. The song of Lulu turns into a light and straight into the heart. "Du Shi Niang", the cordial civil cable of the vulgarity, echoing in the hallway, echoing in the airful spring night. . .
The day from other days. In actual life, bid farewell to the basement and not expected the tragic effect, I have a bag, re-start. The basement is like a village silently looking at her son. In the past two months, why did I come, I found out what, what will I want? Everything is not so clarity. But I have experienced the baptism of winter and darkness, I have won. I know: My trek is impossible to have end points. Safuch, who is guided by Mefist, is guided by Pyrryis, Jules, who is charming by Singer's song, is a blessing than I have a blessing. . They arrived at the realm of dreams and returned to the long hometown. Difficult to them, there is an end. At that moment to reach the end, it is the vertex of the flowers in their lives. All of this, I won't have. At the time of elementary school, I saw a black and white movie in Poland. It is said that a submarine who lost his homes, a group of water in the hometown. They float in the coast of South America. The huge threat of the enemy, forcing all the coast ports that can not be taken. In addition to the addition of one hour, they hurried and warehoued. The ocean is boundless, they can't get home. I didn't think that this seems like a film, I became a portrayal of my life. Always drifting, always homeless. I have been put on, but I lost the direction in the complex path bifurcation. A period of experience is over. It seems to be endless. It is indeed not finished. In fact, the species of human beings, from him, is a confused wandering. The ending is the same as the beginning. We seem to have found a lot along the way, and the result is nothing. The career of the basement is bitter and heavy, and people who go out of the basement do not mean that he will get compensation. Stretching in front of it is still dusty road. He has to go, but also waiting, he wants to look forward until he completely doesn't need it. Born us, it is to treat us like this, no fairness is unfair. Such an ending, some readers will think that it is too flat, too unsatisfactory. People who have such ideas, I guess it is still very young. You believe that people will definitely have splendid tulips in front of people, and you will pick it up. I am a half-life, I will no longer have such an expectation. When I was young, I got the countryside, there is a pastel wild flower in the field, blue, the eyes like a country child. They are simple, humble, and will never be taken away by anyone. Anniversary year, they opened again. You may ask: Why is this flower to open? There is a true meaning here: most of the life is so humble, so it is so strange. They will always have to live, forever, always with the waves. In the basement, it is a small Song, Luo, Luhua and Tangshan brothers gave me warmth in the night. They are born, they are growing, maybe life is in the most edge of the city. But they gave me some little pitiful heat. Isn't this my gain? Isn't this the most brilliant tulip on the road? The bustling general will fade, when we are eye-catching, we can only be the light of this weak and warm. Please believe in this assertion, one day, all readers will feel this. Before leaving, I gave a small Song with the items used in the basement. He has to continue to suffer, he is more calories more than I. On the way to the northern suburbs, he doesn't know how much it will run. Xiao Song is very grateful to me, maybe this will constitute a moral pressure he strive for success. I do not like this. I remind him that I don't want to be too much, the road is still long, there is always a solid soil. Xiao Song helped me to carry your luggage and sent me to the place where I couldn't be sent.
