It may be the impact of the family, and the military camp from childhood is very strong. I admire the strict discipline of military camps, order the strict work style and soldiers' steel will, everything to go to the military camp, I hope to have a military person to become a military person, to implement my tactics in the war, to verify my own thoughts, reflecting yourself The value of this world.
Maybe you shouldn't belong to this era, or you may be too secular. Living in the world of this material, I gradually began to doubt this ideal in my heart. I hesitated, and slowly start thinking about how it is "stupid". When I fill in volunteers after the college entrance examination, I gave up "not willing to", I gave up the opportunity to enter the army to realize my ideal, I fill in the computer major "hot", and I wished to enter a famous university. I am completely unrecognizable in the joy, I have given up this easily.
Entering the university, there is no parent's supervision, you have a relaxation, and there is no longer have the hard reading of the five big chickens before, and it has become a strong support for sixty-six long-year-old thoughts. There is more time, because there is no ideal that can struggle, the emptiness feels to fill in my life, and I don't know what to exist every day. Gradually, I started fascination with rock music, from Michael Jackson to Gun's N Rose, using hot music every day to fill the soul of their own emptiness. Without interest in learning, I began to walk into job position as soon as possible, because it is a new field that I have never involved, and my mystery makes me full of desire.
At the end of the four years of university life, with the yearning and passion of new life, I bid farewell to the alma mater, bid farewell to the brothers who have lived in college life with me, came to Dalian, and entered the first after graduation. the company. With a sense of passion and strong sense of responsibility, I have won the trust of the boss and was sent to a cooperative project of Shenzhen and Huawei Company. However, the achievements of the past have fascinated my eyes, so I can't recognize myself, forget that there are still many things that need to be learned. I don't have a challenging job every day and repeatedly. I hope to have a better environment to hone yourself and hope to have a better life. So, I quit the job, bringing not much money that accumulated more than a year, came to the bustling big Shanghai.
However, the reality is cruel. Shanghai is a place that gathers the national elite. In the process of finding work, I have touched a lot of nails, let me know how much it is, and it is really small. In this paper drunken fans, the pressure of life has grinded my original passion and sharpness, although living in this most dynamic city in this China, but can't stop myself a mediocrity one day. In order to live a lot of hard work every day, when I arrived at home at night, I thought of resting, my body gradually became poor. The desire for money is strong day than a day, because there is a very high price in this city, housing prices, you must have enough money to settle down. I started tired of money. What is ideal, desire, a new one forgotten. I started to feel that I really seem to be a workmanship, lying in the work shed, looking at the lights in the high-rise building of the window, and I can fly the Yellow Tengda toward one day.
When I am not busy, I still like to listen to music, but Michael Jackson's song has been far away, and I like to listen to Xu Wei's song, like his wonderful melody and let my heart lyrics, especially like " One year ":" How can we make this unstoppable heart, this is exhausted in the mediocrity. " Every time I hear here, I will ask myself, why didn't there be passion of the year? Don't you really want to go? I started to reflect myself. Maybe I have adhered to my ideals to go to the army, and now I can live very fulfilled. But the real world is there is no perhaps, the ideal that is lost is, and there is no way to find it back. However, the passionate flame is absolutely can't go out, and he is absolutely unable to go. The person's life is actually very short. If you don't have a grasp, there is no chance. I have lost my childhood, and I can't continue to be busy. The future day may also be full of hardships and 彷徨, but I have to work hard, find my own ideals that I have rushed down by the times, I will find my lost soul, use it to re-filled my empty heart, go to realize The ideal that has always been existed in my heart.
