This is the next time I wrote about my grandmother. The 3rd, the first time I wrote "I hope that she is an angel blessing" is September 2003, her grandmother found that there is liver cancer, the second write "Angel is really blessing to her" is the grandmother from November 2003. Cancer cell surgery is successful and the physical recovery is particularly good. This time I wrote a few hundred times more than before, I was happy to buy a gift for my sister during the day, sitting here for the fantasy. The last operation has called me to think that I have seen so much pain, and the taste of my psychology is not asked. I went to my sister to buy birthday gift this afternoon, I received a phone call. Mother said that her grandmother checks that there is cancer, I asked the two sides "how?" I hanged the phone, I felt that my individual was completely tawned, my mind was blank, I don't know how to do it. When I take the bus, I will always feel blurred in front of my eyes, I know this is tears. In the eyelids, there is no flow, I will never cry, try to spread my energy. But it doesn't work, and the brain is completely unspeakable. I used to hit it more and more, the more happy, how do you laugh now? I took the car, and I walked home like a dead body. Mom told me to go to the family, I went. When I entered the door, I laughed with my sister, because I didn't want to see me cry, although my face was happy than anyone, but my mind has been placed on my grandmother. I want to ask God, why? why? Is it not enough to fight? Isn't it a caravation? How come I have to come once? I am pulled enough ... I can't accept this truth, I know that it is true, but still is not willing to believe. How can I do this ... My grandmother is kindly can't be kind, a good old lady who is chanting at home to treat her like this? I really can't accept it. Is there a good person really not reported? How many friends advised me, I can't hear it. I am really afraid, I don't dare to face my grandmother, I am afraid to see her, I am afraid that I will cry. Since last time she is sick, I always go to see her, talk to her. How is this sudden sudden? Listening to my father said that the cancer to temporarily discovery is on the skull, but also to do a whole body examination, see if there is something else. Grandma has never known your condition, even lasting surgery also tells her to cut a small cyst. She has nothing to do, but I think she is sure that I don't want to think, I don't dare to face it. I know that my father's eyes I know that he cried for a whole afternoon, it is useless ... I look at my father crying? do not know. Originally, I had to take a plane in the afternoon, I don't want to pull it now. Dad said that he would want to do a rule of law, now there is money to rule, wait for the money to sell a house to sell the car, and sell your grandmother. Dad never got money, the last treatment fee was also borne by Dad, and aunt was only responsible. There is a kind mother, there is a filial son, and there is a good family, why do you try our best? I am not afraid of death, but I am most afraid of seeing my family sick. I beg God, the god bodhisattva of the sky, saving my grandmother. Guard this kind of grammium ... - Dragon Pray
1:38 2004-5-15
