2005.1.1 I know this sentence If some people who have a relationship with me, I am definitely a few sentences and improperly true. But actually what I want to say is that I want to die at the age of 40, or die a day before the age of forty, that kind of time I can do something in the ideal. Always thinking, we live, cost your own energy and others' energy, there is such a demand for the material spirit, and is also required by others, then what is the meaning of us? Is it just a sand in the law of energy conservation? Still what else? I don't have a tired of death or have a near negative idea that I want to end my life. I just feel that my life is not explicit to myself to satisfy myself. Because for a self, I can't see the meaning of myself is a very sad thing. Once, a long period of time, I thought that I had existed to experience various emotions, then is it still? Or if there is a day of emotions to be experienced all over, then I don't want to live? Or, from now on, I will reconsider myself, still an organic, can have the next step of the object. I know that I am a boring person, sometimes being seen as boring but I can't make a temper, sometimes being seen as a kind seed, and sometimes it is seen as a mentally ill patient, or It has not been placed in the forefront of the surrogate personnel. I know that I always think too much, I also know that there is too much to use too much, I will only make my hair less and less. But still can't stop, what is it because I can't find the reason? I think maybe because my character and experience are determined, but this is too general and generally, and it is simply nothing to say. But it is necessary to analyze, I think I will be fainted, but I want to have the day that makes me dull. But I am really grateful to this place to let me release yourself, thank you you can give me some dilutions for my emotions and thoughts. The hair begins to grow up, I like this, and if my beard can be easily managed like hair, I will prefer myself, although I am very quiet. I said that someone thinks that my short hair is pleasing, some people think that I have a long hair, some people think that I have a beard, some people think that I have no beard. Strong brother and strong brother, said, I see how you are pleasing, no matter what your hair is still short, no matter if you are having a beard or there is no beard. I am very grateful to their mother and son, let me feel very comfortable. Love a person, like a person, or not so fierce, just get along with a person, I like this tolerance, I am grateful to their inclusion.
