In 1928, when Shen Congwen was still struggling in a dilemma, Xu Zhimo wrote to him: "Still go to Beijing, Beijing will not be because of you."
Shen Congwen has not returned to Beijing. Later, he talked about Xu Zhimo and wanted to enter the Shanghai Art Specialist School, and the idea of painting Liu Haisu. Xu Zhimo said, "What books are still, go to the book!"
At the time, Hu Shizhi is a Shanghai Chinese Institute, which is introduced by Xu Zhimo. Hu Shi agrees to hire Shen Congwen as Chinese public lecturers, leading the first-year modern literature elective course in the University Department. Shen Congwen, graduated from elementary school, was actually extended as university teachers, even at the time, it could not be said to be a bold and open decision. The days of the first time I gated in the final arrival. Shen Congwen is both excited and nervous. Before this, he did serious and fully prepared, and the estimated information was used for one hour. When I went to school from the residence in the concession, he also spent eight dollars and rented a charter. The first time I took the teacher's identity to enter the university door, I can't look too cold! According to the predetermined conditions, taking a lesson class, only six dollary remuneration, the result is natural to lose money!
At that time, Shen Congwen has been in the beginning of the literary world, and it has also been famous in society. Therefore, students who are listening to a lot of students. Today is the first lesson, and some don't listen to the class, just coming soon, in order to seek respectable students, the classroom is already squeezed. There have been many people who have read the novels of Shen Congwen. I heard some rumors about his rumors, and there is a small call in the classroom. The classroom is small, the character, the article and the people. - They know that Shen Congwen is the past, the novel is not lacking in the novel, the people in the western region, in their minds, the image of the imagination from time to time: one is a strange, strong eyebrows, full of eyes Mangang 's male Han.
However, when Shen Congwen low, hurriedly embarked on the podium, opposite the students, the real Shen Congwen in front of him, but the Shen Cong Dynasty with their imagination is two people: a half-new blue cloth long shirt is a pair The thin body, the eyebrows are like a woman, pale and less bloody; a pair of black eyes have a little bit of mind.
He stood on the podium and looked up. He saw a black pressure. He suddenly shocked, countless looks to the eyes, it is gathered by himself, forming a strong and burning power, will say what he wants to say A sentence is blocked in the eyes of the throat. At the same time, the "" of the brain, the original thinking, suddenly flying out, leaving just a blank. Before class, he thought that Cheng Zhu was in the chest, neither the teaching plan, and did not bring any textbooks. Here, he felt that it was in the void and lost any of the relying on the diploma.
One minute has passed, he fails to make a sound; five minutes have passed, he still don't know why. ...... Under the public, he actually stood nearly ten minutes!
Starting, the classroom also played in the classroom; after five minutes, the sound waves in the classroom gradually went down; then, the full classroom of the classroom was silent! The nervousness of Shen Congwen is open, some female students are also nervous from the text, and some are low; in them, there is a student who has just been promoted to the first grade of the university department, when it is called Zhang Zhaohe, The year of 18, the face is beautiful, the body is somewhat, the character is peaceful, and the students are recognized as the school flowers in Chinese universities. Due to the darkness of the skin, Shen Congwen later called "Black Phoenix". At this time, she saw the sinking of the Work, a heart is extremely tight, and the blood is jumping, the blood tide is flooded to the face, and she can't look up and look at Shen Congwen .... - These kind and affectionate young women! These ten minutes of experience, in the feeling of Shen Congwen, even more than him in the border of Xiangchuan in Xiangchuan, and still have a long and difficult. But he finally completed this overhead. He slowly calmed down, the original scattered discourse has begun in the brain. ... He is easy to open the mouth. This first sentence is like a resiliency of the strong enemy, the brigade is finally out of the decline. He is very urgently telling that one side is written on the blackboard. However, he is once again violent. Book an hour's teaching content, unnecess it is busy, more than ten minutes have finished talking. He is again in distress. In the end, he had to pick up the chalk and wrote on the blackboard: I first class, see you, I am afraid. After class, the students discuss them. The news passed to the middle of the teacher. Some people said: "Shen Congwen has come to Zhonggong, I can't tell it half an hour!" This comment is sent to Hu Shi's ear, Hu Shi does not feel embarrassed, and laughs. : "If you can't tell the class, students are not bombing him, this is success."
I don't know when, when I got the "black phoenix" of the "Black Phoenix" of the courses, I flew into the screen of Shen Congwen's brain, and it was more and more and more and more and more, and I won't be erased. Zhang Zhaoxhen's beauty and quiet, strongly shaking his heart and makes him fans. The god arrow of Cupid shot his heart, and the tide of love was born. At this time, Shen Congwen has been 26 years old, has already passed the age of a general person's marriage. However, since he left Xiangxi, since the incompetence of the urban crowd, the most urgent problem he faced, is that the problem of eating, the desire of sex can not be surprised to survive. Plus on his life road, fails to meet the right opportunities, the world is more, it seems to be insulated from him. Although the same number of youth, Shen Congwen can't get tortured by adolescence, but everything is not talking about, the desire to sexually love can only be generated in the illusory imagination, and the rotation is imagined. This seems a bit different. At the moment, how to live for the most urgent threat, the object of love is so real, she is not an imaginary phantom, but a living life. The tide of love is so violent. He often makes it uncomfortable, sitting and uncomfortable. After the meal, he walked in the campus, often can't help but live in the student dormitory of Zhang Zhaohe lived. He is eager to see her again, and think about what to talk to her. However, he is a person who is still not talking in the person, and there is always a man who is in front of Zhang Zhaohe, and always stands in the middle of the room. I don't know what to say. He wants to pour his love to Zhang Zhaohe and pour your love, even if it is a blurred hint. But when you say it, it has been asked her homework, reading, and the situation in the home. After seeing what topic she likes, what is it. Seeing him standing and talking, Zhang Zhaohe asked him to sit down, but he didn't take it. Seeing him, Zhang Zhaohe I felt a bit funny, and from his look, it felt a bit of a little, but it was a bit uneasy. The messenger is far from the storytelling, and finally uses his pen, give Zhang Zhaoxuan and wrote the love letter, and it is not available. It is said that the first love letter, "only one page, a few words, and the component is extremely". 1 Although it continued in a big bunch of books, after a long time of longer than half a century, it has never been there, but only one in "new waste ship", from it is visible These lovers are generally outlined. I still have to say that your slave, for himself, for others, and strive to get rid of the embarrassment. Of course, this matter cannot be made because it is not an easy task. In order to make you feel embarrassed, you feel that I am very bad. I have done a ridiculous effort, trying to go with another person, I will worship me, I will wish to make my slave, I understand that I am not a leader, I don't need another woman with slavery, I can't serve me. But I am willing to make a slave, give your own heart, give me the people I love. I said that I love you very much, this kind of words can't be replaced now, because this is my servant.
× ×, I ask you, I will make me what I want to do in the future. When I want to say something to you, you can be a person who is more stupid and not annoying, ... a moon is unheatched People praise, unfair this praise how to make things, how is it inappropriate, it does not refuse these shouts from the heart. ××, you are my moon. You can listen to some people who are not very smart, use the various sounds, all kinds of words, tell you the various feelings, but this is because of your existence, such as a bright, shining to my life , Don't you think this is a fun thing in survival? ...... In the past one year, we can have seen countless monsters, and go to any place, take it on our head, or that moon. This selfless month is not available all throughout, and it is still the same from us. As for you, "personnel" cloud, but it blocks my eyes, I can't often see my moon! A day, a bit of youth, although the days can not destroy my impressions, but slowly make me different. "A woman will never go old in the poem of the poet, but the poet him is old." I think of this, I am very depressed. Life is a very little thing, it is not more than a flower, and it is more likely to live in the end of the year. It is used to naturally and disclose life. Fujika. In the same person, the second time will not be there. I only have seen a full moon. I also comfort yourself, I said, "I have passed a lot of local bridges, I have seen many clouds, I have a lot of kinds of wine, but I only love a person who is the best age. I should be fortunate for myself. ... "This is so comfortable that you are still useless, and you can't endure this matter to a laughter. My moon is only in the memories, this is sad, natural is not that you use it, because it is not because you love me.
... I am now, there is no pain, I am very quiet, I seem to live for love, so I just want to live well. If you really have a ten years, you or in front of you, or have a professor of a certain university, or you are no longer a child, you have become a mother of many children, we see it, That is what is interesting. On any of the works, as well as the biography of any world famous author, the most moving chapter is always the chapter of the person to dispute vines. Many poems are designed for this enthusiasm. Many moving poems are these things. We can appreciate that thing, touched for those things, but as usual, and others The legendary behavior that what happened to what happened, this is not a fair. Because this reason, the sky will not allow you to grow a child. "Nature" makes the apple from cyan and yellow, and must change you in an appropriate time into a "adult." × ×, when you think you are not a child, I am willing to do adults, I wanted to know what is going on when you are in the place, what feelings. "萑 萑" is easy, "rock" is difficult, my life is equal to "萑 萑", love your heart, I hope it can be as "rock". 1
This letter was written in 1931, and it has been more than two years away from the first accommodation. When I initially, Zhang Zhaohe received the love letter of Shen Congwen, it was a bit unknown, and I still got a little bit a little; a teacher wrote this kind of thing, really! However, a girl's shame, but she is afraid that this is coming out and makes the campus short flow. She only had to listen to the Shenwen Wen, and I wrote that the endless love letter was written, but it was an out of it. Zhang Zhaohe did not pay attention to it, and it was a life of Shen Congwen. Of course, I hope to get a clear answer, but the result is not only to get her only words, and even when she went to see her. He loves her to the extent to be mad, I think of her, the blood of the whole body will run a lot quickly, and it is very painful. It is very painful. It seems that everything in life is right, love, happiness is nothing. He really wants to jump up from the upstairs of his own, and you will have the relief of life. Shen Congwen's irritability, I don't know how to spread in the campus, saying that Shen Zong and Zhang Zhao, Zhang Zhaohe, ignored, Shen Congwen is going to commit suicide. Zhang Zhaohe's girlfriend, he heard Zhang Zhaohe and said to her: "You hurried to the principal. Otherwise, Shen Congwen committed suicide, asking you to be responsible." Zhang Zhaohe is also nervous, she gave her with Shen A pair of love books, hurriedly found the principal Hu Shi, saying: "You see Mr. Shen, a teacher, he gives me a letter, ... I am thinking now, not talking about this kind of thing." She hopes Hu Shi Support and further development of this in the future. However, the result is the opposite of her expectation. After listening to her statement, Hu Shi smiled and took this income. It is not worth a strangeness, saying to her: "This is also good, his article is very good, you can communicate." Listen to Hu Shi If you don't have some embarrassment on Zhang Zhaohe face. After talking to Hu Shi, I walked away after a while. Since then, she has never been a letter from refusing to Shen, and has not responded to the desire to respond. I have to hold you with you, with my unknown attitude, and listen to the natural development of this. Zhang Zhaohe and the cold response to Shen Congwen, did not involve her value to Shenyi's value is not worthy of her love - this problem is not being placed in my heart. This is also related to her age, and is also associated with the family's family.
Zhang Zhaohe born famous nobles, the original Anhui Hefei. Zhang Jia is the big family of the local situation, with a good field, and built a surrounding in Feixi, and people call "Zhangjia Lao Zhou". Zeng's grandfather Zhang Shu, the famous generals of Li Hongzhang in Tongzhi, Zeng Huazhong, who had led the soldiers, and fights with the Taiping Tianzhi Junjun. From 1879 to 1884, he served as two Guangzhou Governor and Zhili Governor. Grandfather has also made a Sichuan Terrace of the judiciary. Father Zhang Duo Ling, the word rope, it is the grandfather, and after the death of the grandfather, he undertakes a thick family. Due to the influence of near modern new trend, it is too feudal, and since the name is called, it is also called Jiyou. Initially, I want to invest in an industry. I don't know how to operate, I will move to Suzhou, and I will create Pinglin Middle School and Leyi women. After too much Suzhou male school, it ends Pinglin and specialists. Any a poor people and workers daughters will not receive tuition fees. The employed teacher is not embarrassing. There are several famous parties in the teacher, Zhang Wentian, Hou Shaozhen, Yan Ming, etc., all in the Leyi female. Zhang Zhaohe and ten brothers and sisters, died in her ten years old. Zhang Wu Ling is not allowed to wear earrings in his own daughter. In the family of family, Zhang Zhaoxhen and the second sister are handed over, and the sister is charged and the girls who have the most advanced new school reading. When reading a book in Leyi women, Zhang Zhaohe brothers like new literature, and the family has a "novel monthly", "new month" and other publications, but also a publication, name "water". However, since the mother died, Zhang Zhaohe is a babysitter, an old family education is in turn, and it has gradually cultivated Zhang Zhaohe a gift, calm, peace, calm. After growing up, I also accepted the baptism of the times, I agree to the new thinking, but I can't become bold, pour, warm, and dare to "new women" to all traditional challenges. Therefore, the writing is a matter of writing, but in the case of building an invisible high wall between her, she sometimes likes her goat to avoid sinking. At that time, the accounting of the new moon bookstore Shawmum, the size is like Cool Xiao Shen. once. Zhang Zhaohe and go to buy a book, walk into the door of the new moon bookstore, suddenly see Xiaoku, thinking that Shen Congwen is in the store, scaring her.
However, in her eyes, Shen Congwen's love book is really good! On the one hand, she is afraid that this sudden comes, on the other hand, a secret curious, making her unable to push the temptation of these emotions. She finished every love letter from her head, and then gently greeted him, and I went into a small box. However, those who are full of love, mix with melancholy words, layered in her heart. Time is long, but is hot, fermented. Unconsciously, she has become accustomed to letting her have a blushing, and there is no fear of the blood, and no longer afraid. - A love that she didn't make clearly realized, in her manner, quietly gerberate teeth.
Zhang Zhaoxhen's silence and retraction, which is different from indirect encouragement. He continued in the martial arts of the country, and he continued to love this marathon's love. In this case, the days are four years. In 1932, Zhang Zhaohe has graduated from Chinese universities and returned to Suzhou home. At this time, Shen Congwen is teaching in Qingdao University in Shandong. He wanted to have a relationship with Zhang Zhaohe in four years, and now there is a broken time. He decided to go to Suzhou to visit Zhang.
Magnin, I hope that she can get a clear reply, a holiday, he will take the road to Shanghai, and turn again to Suzhou.
On this day, Zhangjiatang, No. 3, Jiu Yixiang, Suzhou, came to a glaced pale guest, saying that he came from Qingdao, surnamed Shen, came to see Zhang Zhaoxhen. However, Zhang Jia didn't know him alone. When he learned Zhang Zhaohe, when he read the book at the Park Library, he thought Zhang Zhaohe is intended to hide himself, and it is shy, very uneasy, just when he enters the next, Zhang Zhaofe's second sister Zhang Yun and come out. When I was clear, he was originally Shen Congwen - he wrote a lot of love for Zhang Zhaohe, and his sister is no secret. So, Zhang Yun and asked him to take a family, waiting for Zhang Zhao and back. Shen Congwen refused to go back to the Central Hotel where he stayed. Zhang Zhaohe back home, Zhang Yun and advise her to see Shen Congwen. In front of brothers, Zhang Zhaohe face can't be hung, saying: "There is no thing! Go to the hotel to see him? Don't go!"
Zhang Yunhe said: "You will say, my brothers and sisters are more fun, please come to play!"
Back to the hotel, Shen Cong Wen is very annoyed, lying in bed alone: I took 30 hours of train, I didn't want to eat closed door. Imagine, Zhang Zhaohe received his letter from Suzhou, it seems to say unconstims to himself: "Your letter I received, I came here." He asked in his heart: Why is I stupid? Why is people who are so cold, I am so enthusiastic? I saw this so much this time, but people see so casual? He chewed "You Come on" from the mouth of the other side, and you will have a strange emotion, and it seems very happy and seems very angry.
When his eyes appeared in front of each other, the might showed the scenes, the unspeakable scene: her heart must be said: "Your letter I have seen, I don't understand those words.
I thought you don't have to be so adequate. I am not what you think. "I want to say:" You think about it, I want to go, only you marry me. " Can make me happiness and make you happy. I can't think of anyone can love you like me.
She must understand that she has come to Suzhou hopes. She may think: "I said to him, it is really difficult to deal with."
If you said to her: "I am very rare, because I love you." How do she answer? Or say: "No, this is unnecessary." Or say: "This is not fresh, you have said more than 100 times."
If I said: "You should tell me what you think and advice on this matter, promise or not?" She will say: "I have no feelings, there is no opinion." Or say: "I have already told you no If you need it. "Or because of my stupid question, she
I am angry, crying?
- And I really dare to say: "You decide, or may not, is it a decision?"
If I really dare, she says: "No," I dare to say: "Okay, take your mean, this is your freedom?"
.........
When I thought about it, someone came to knock on the door. He got up and opened the door. See Zhang Zhaohe is standing outside the door, as if the back book is like: "Mr. Shen, my brothers and sisters, very fun, please play?!"
After that, I can't do anything else. Everything is a chaotic in the imagination, it is simple in reality. As a result, Shen Cong will follow Zhang Zhaohe and turn around the third number. Shen Congwen takes out the gift to Zhang Zhaoxum: a big bag of books, two of which are hardcover this Russian novel, as well as Tolstotto, Thazuvuski and Tuger's works. This is the Subcommittee, and listened to the Bust suggestion and was purchased by Ba Jin. In addition, I bought a very delicate and beautiful book clip, and there was a pair of interesting long mouth birds. In order to buy these things, Shen Congwen has sold a copyright of a book. The gift is too heavy, Zhang Zhaohe returns most books, only accepts the "Father and Son" and "Hunter Notes" and a pair of books.
At the time, Zhang Zhaohe's father and stepmother were living in Shanghai. Her five brothers Zhang Yuhe, took a copy from the monthly money of two yuan, bought a bottle of soda, opened, please. In this regard, Shen Congwen is very touched, and when I have promised promise: "I wrote some stories to you." Later, I saw the chapters of the novel "Month Xiaoshi" in the theme of the Buddhist scriptures, each one, Both "give Zhangjia Xiaowu" words.
Zhang Zhaohe's second sister is worried, it is a heart-wide and thick girl who specializes in adult beauty. Shen Congwen trusts her. After returning to Qingdao, he wrote to Zhang Yunhe and trust her for the father's opinion on this marriage. At the same time, I will write to Zhang Zhaoxhen: "If my father agrees, I will let me know soon, let me drink a sweet bar."
In fact, this is much more. Zhang Zhaohe's father is open to the mind, the love of children, marriage, from asking questions and interference. The child himself, told him that he smiled and accepted, not to ask how the other party is, more about the portal. A neighbor of Zhang Jia, Zeng Zone asked him a big daughter, he laughed, "Children marriage, they are self-care, don't do it with me." Since then, no one will give Zhangjia. Zhang Jia's nanny often said to outsiders: "Zhang Jia's wife marriage, let them 'go' from ',', or 'himself."
In Zhang Zhaohe's marriage, he naturally does not have any objection. After getting the father clear opinions, Zhang Yun and Zhang Zhao and the sisters, I went to the post office, and I sent a telegram, Zhang Yun and the telegram, only took a word from my name: "Yun". Zhang Zhaohe's telegram said: "Country people, drink a sweet bar." The teleport member felt strange, and asked Zhang Zhaohe. Zhang Zhao and I am embarrassed: "You are tube, take pictures."
After this, Zhang Zhaohe Ben Shi and Shen Congwen Communication. At this point, this marathon's love process can finally see its endpoint.
