The new year's bell has sounded, 2004, this year has become a past style in my life. So this night I should make a summary and reflection on this one year. There are many unforgettable experiences in this year, some make me proud, and some of me have done it, I will give me 2005 this night. Wishing: I will have more meaningful next year, I will be more mature, more active and optimistic, facing my life, I hope every step in the future is more solid, open.
First, work and study
Last year, I started a difficult independence. Because I didn't want my parents to take my burden on my life when I was studying, I was the responsibility of my family, but I used to take the responsibility of the family. My own future, I chose to continue to study and realize my dreams in the IT field. These parents gave me a lot of support, my family conditions are very bad, they are very hard at work, my sister is reading, and I am so uncomfortable thing, so I am very uncomfortable. After the intended investigation, I decided that I was completely independent during the study period. Most of the tuition can loary. I have to make myself to earn it. I just started, this is not easy, because I At that time, there was no experience in the work. On the other, it was difficult to arrange, and it was still difficult to arrange. In the second half of 2003, I haven't done it in the first half of last year. I have been in a few months in a company. Treatment is also very Simple, but also spent this stage, in June I started to do some external software projects, first in the X Xunkai to do the Office knowledge management system plug-in, have made a summer vacation, continue a project after starting, or compare Happy, because it feels better that all this is better. Behind this semester has made several projects, although because of the back of the disease, basically I still have independent life, it is a progress, I know that this is still going to experience more hardships, but I also know that my own ability to resist resistance has greatly improved, and the road will go even more broad.
There are not many in learning in this year. The main energy is placed in technology. I know that I still don't really do the opening questions. This part is in the college, but more or I am arranged. Great. After a while, I must properly allocate the corresponding energy and do this. I will be better in the future. After all, it is not the most important thing. I need to grasp this distribution, otherwise the postgraduate life will soon become history. At that time, there may be no more conditions to study today. In 2005, he should spend more effort on topics, and hard work is inevitable, and it is also necessary.
In this year's own technology, there is a lot of effort in the field of DOTNET, and it has basically engaged in the development of various applications above this platform. The experience of large projects is the experience of large projects, but I believe that when you are facing such specific items. I can do it, I am confident in my learning ability. I still have a relatively important technical field this year. One is Linux, because the topic should be developed on this, it is estimated that they will definitely study it, and then the Oracle database, this part has been speaking Energy to master a probably, but there is no arrangement, and Java technology, the environment in which large applications developed is mainly Java, Microsoft's technology is still not very applicable to high-end fields, I have to graduate before graduation. Door, if you can reach the level of DOTNET, it should be, there is an important technology to communicate technology. I know that the software is combined with communication, especially the upcoming 3G.
The times, I feel that there are many emerging companies and services. I can't do anything in other ways. So first, I will have benefited a lot in the future. If you have a breakthrough in these pieces in 2005, it is really valuable.
Second, life and feelings
In 2004, the mood of this year also needs to be well-reasonable. Life may not have much wave of rolling, but in their own emotional field, still have experienced a lot of twists and turns, have a lot of heavy time when they have been happy. And helpless, there is a positive attitude, but there is a very pessimistic mood. Sometimes I find that I am not a very good tailor, there is a lot of things in my heart, I haven't been able to say it, it is difficult to find one. Suitable people can tell my troubles. Many people around me think that I am a very optimistic person, but how many people are my troubles and pain? The world's knowledge is really hard to find.
For love, I feel that I am very persistent but confused. I am very clear that I loved. I have been working hard to let her know her own heart, let her believe in my true heart, always in the future, think about and I have a kind of love that my favorite people live together, this may be related to the personality I love fantasy.
This love, I have paid a lot of effort to watered, I have been a long time as a whole, I have never thought about the love of life and another person, can't imagine the future of her. . But this time I also relatively rationally, I will look at this problem, why do I have to convince we believe that we are a unique one? Why did you see that many people's dividends, but always believe that we can go forever? Where is my confidence? Is it really coming from this feeling? To copy yourself, slowly discover, in fact, all this is coming from my own encouragement, or this is a circular argument, but lacks sufficient realistic support.
I have never been willing to face our different points. In fact, this is a kind of avoidance or a fearful mindset, not afraid, but if you have been avoiding, even if you don't lose, you won't get what I want. Happiness, then there is no happiness with love?
I have been with her for so long, I know that she is slowly entry, and I have been love her very much before, so I am willing to do those things for her, I know that I am touched by her many times. Many times Because I did everything I did for her, I was the first, and I gave it to her, I didn't have a second. However, these are not the reason, love is two people's mutual attraction, mutual understanding and care. I think she is not enough, I have had a lot of unqualified records, from acquaintance, I really can't think of what she has made for me. In 2004, she forgot my birthday. I am very sad, I can't feel my position, and I will slowly get along with the love of love. However, when I was sick last time, she didn't show a gentle and care that girlfriend should have. I have been calamating again. I think she is in Shanghai in the past few years. I am worried about a little bit of illness. I can't wait for her to suffer from that pain. I take care of her every day. I didn't expect that she had encountered this time. In addition to the surgery, I said that I am more disappointed, and even if I even send me even a few days, I went to the Valley at the time of this love. I can't imagine that she can be my future wife, a life partner, if not for the future, how much is we now? I am very thinking about her every day from her to my sick. After that, I feel simple, I have begun to adapt to a person's life. Although sometimes, especially in the festival is always so lonely. Christmas a romantic day, if I don't take the initiative to contact her, she will not contact me, even if I actively give her news, the reply is also simple to let me not contact the way, the New Year is the same How many couples always want to send blessings to their lover in the first moment of the New Year, but she didn't think of her calls, I didn't pick it up, I had to send her news, after a few hours The reply is that the company is engaged in activities, all night, I speechless, maybe she is busy, I didn't think it. But why do I always be ignored by her, is my request? We have arrived at the current situation, maybe my fault, because I love her too much, and she rarely let her know my thoughts, she habitually cares about her own things, I can't care about her. While love her, it is also to care and love, such feelings make me lost myself, such a state will not lead to happiness. Don't I don't worthy of her love? But she also said that I love me, is there only to stay in the moment? How can I do it? In 2005, I still have to be the same as before, and I have a completely speaking meter, all my grievances I have endured it, can I keep going? So how do I wake up her, she said she is a high emotional business, I see that she does not love, I haven't learned how to pay, or a child? How can I make her also be a gentle thing, let me see hope? Maybe I am a person who is not very weak, but these are not the things that are able to solve, I only hope to have a simple, normal love, less bitter, more sweet, hope to be able to achieve in this 2005 year, This is also my new year's biggest dream.
