I am 37 years old. Now, I am sitting in the cabin of Boeing 747. This huge aircraft is touched by the thick dark clouds and is ready to land in the Hamburg Airport. The rain in November is a mist in the earth. Wearing the whole construction of the raincoat, neat one of the airport buildings, BMW's large billboards, all of which seems like a gloomy background in Flanders. Ugh! I came to Germany.
At this time, the plane was smooth, and the smoking ban also flooded, and the BGM music was gently flowing in the loudspeaker on the ceiling. It is the "Norwegian Forest", which is not known to play. As soon as the past, this melody is still moving my emotions. Do not! It is much more intense than the past, and I shake me.
In order not to blame the mind, I bowed her body, two hand masks, I can't move. Soon, a German Air Miss came over. I asked me uncomfortable in English. I replied that I didn't tighten, but I was a little dizzy.
"Don't you really?"
"Don't tighten, thank you!" I said. So she leaving a smile, at this time, the megaphone released the song of Pilico. Looking up, I looked up to the dark clouds floating over the North Sea, while thinking in the past half of the past, I have lost it. Thinking those who lost their lost years, people who died or left, as well as the thoughts of smoke.
In the plane is completely stationary, people unwind the seat belts and started to take out the handbag from the cabinet, and when I was always on the grassland. I sniff with grass, listen to the bird, and feel the wind with the skin. That is in the fall of 1969, I am going to be 20 years old.
I just left again, I took it next to me, and I asked me if I asked me.
"Don't be tight! Thank you. I just feel some sentiment. (Lt's all right now.thank you.i only felt lonely, you know.)" I laughed and replied.
"Well, I Fell Same Way, Same Things, Once in a while.i knower What you mean. (I also often like this! I can understand!)" Say, she shook her head, stood up from the seat, right I launched a beautiful smile. "I Hope You'll Have An Ice Trip. Aufwiedersehen! (I wish you a happy journey. Goodbye!)"
"AUFWIEDERSEHEN!" I also followed.
Even today, the grassland scenery is still in the eye. The drizzle of the rain rushed away from the dust on the bare surface of the mountain, and took a deep blue blue, while the customs of October slammed the mood grass, the narrow and long clouds were frozen. It's like a blue sky. On the top of the sky, only the eye is crystall, you will feel the pain. The wind blows a grassland, and it is dried with her, and then goes to the metric forest. The leaves of the leaves are ringing, a few dogs in the distance. The sound listened to a bit blurry, as if you were in the other world's entrance. In addition, there is no other sound. No matter what the sound can't enter our ear. No one will go with us, only two bright red birds flew up from the grassland, flying into the murders. On the side, the straight child talked to me with me.
Remember this stuff is really incredible. When I have experienced it, I don't pay attention to the scenery. At that time, I didn't think it would let people leave a deep impression, and I will never expect it after 18 years. I may remember the grass. Freshres, 鞘 鞘 虻 辉 谝馐 谝馐 缇 缇 谝馐 匦淖咴谖 匦 匦 匦 易 易 海 海 海 匦淖咴谖 匦淖咴谖 匦淖咴谖 匦淖咴谖 飧雒 缘 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 飧雒 笤 倩 防 防 匦淖 匦淖 匦淖 骸 还 惺艿 芗 ⑾ ⑾ ⑾ ⑾ 芑嵯 ⑾ ⑾ 裁 裁 裁 峁 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶 阶The pen is closed, and the 鍪 鍪 鞘 衷 衷 谔 蛋 量 量 量 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 沧 蛋 蛋 蛋 缇? However, now the first in my mind is now, but it is the grassland scenery. Grassiang, squatting some slightly cold winds, mountain lines, dog bark, the first to appear, it is clear. It is also because it is too clear, and people think it seems to be drawn by one by one as if she reached out. But the grassland is not visible. There is no one. There is no tri, no me. I don't know where we have gone. Why suddenly happened this? Once I care, I still see her, I, my world, where is it? By the way, I can't even remember the face of the tri, I can think of it, it is a background that I can't see the figure.
Of course, as long as it is willing to spend time, I can still remember her face. Little icy hands, a soft and smooth long hair, soft and round earroops, one small mole below the earlobe, the camel bracket in the winter, the old love gaze the opposite side of the opposite side If there is something that is not trembled (just like standing on the hillside shaving the wind), the impression is all settled, and her face will naturally appear. The first thing to show is her side face. This is about because I'm talking about it in a piece of relationship with the tri. So let me recall that it is often her side face. Then, she will turn to me, smile gently, start talking slightly, standing with my eyes while staring at my eyes. It seems to look for a small fish in the clear spring.
However, I have to spend a while to ask such a face. Moreover, as the end of the years, the time spent more and more, although it is very sad, but it is really true. In the first five seconds, I can think of it, gradually turning into ten seconds, thirty seconds, and then a minute. It is like black shadows at dusk, and it is more long. The last thing will be swallowed down by the dark? Yes, my memory is really more and more farther than the crude child, as I have gone and the past. There is only the scenery, the grassland scenery of October, just like a picture symbolized in the movie, constantly emerge in my mind. The scenery was "kick" a part of my brain. Hey! Let's get up! I am still here! Let's get up! Get up and understand why I am still here! No pain! Not hurt at all! It's just a sound in every feet. But I am afraid how long will I have lost? Just as all everything has disappeared. However, in the aircraft of the Road of Fort Hanza (Lufthansa Airline Name) in this burger, they played my head more strongly than usual. Let's get up! Get up! So, I wrote this novel. Because I am the kind of anything, if I write it into a text, I can't understand it.
At that time, what did she talk about?
Yes, she talked to a wild well. I don't know if I really have the well, maybe it is just a mark in her mind - like many things weaving in my mind. However, since the top of the tri, I think of that well. Although I didn't have a good time, I was intimately branded in my brain, and it was indivisible. I can even draw the appearance of that well in detail. It is located between the grassland and the heteropathic forest. The vine grass smartly covered this black hole in the surface on the surface. The four surroundment has neither a fence, nor a stone that is high. Only this hole is greatly opened. The stone of the well is hit by the wind and rain, turns into a strange white turbulence, and it is a trace of cracking on the collapse. I saw a little green lizard in the gap of the stone. I can't see anything through the body. I only know that it is anyway and deep and deep, and you can't imagine. Among them, they only stuffed dark - mixed a thick darkness of all of this world. "It's true - really very deep!" Deton cautiously wording. She is often that way. In the case of cautiously, the words are slowly said. "It's really deep. However, no one knows its position. But it must be a place in this."
When she said, she put her hands into the pocket of the squid, and looked at me smile.
"Isn't that too dangerous?" I said. "There is a deep well in some place, no one knows where it is. What do you fall in?"
"Yes! 咻 -! Then everything is over!"
"Will it really have this kind of thing?"
"Often! About every two years or three years will happen! People are so inexplicable, how to find it. So people who belong to this are said to fall into the deep well. of."
"This seems not to be a kind of death!" I said.
"It's very miserable!" She said, while looking at the little chop shavings on the top with hands. "If you think so, if you break the neck, you will count, if you just fight the legs, then you will be bad. Even if you have broken the throat, no one will hear, no one will find you, 蜈蚣, spider onside I didn't catch the bones of the people who died there. The sporadic scattered, four weeks. Yin and wet wetlands. Only small aperture seems to be on the top of the world. You have to die alone! "
"I want to let people feel straight!" I said. "Should find its location, then do a stone!"
"But no one can find it! So! Can not go too far from the big road!"
"Will not."
Trudi sticks to the left hand from the pocket and holds me. "But you don't matter. You don't have to worry. Even if you come here to" blindness "in the night, you will never fall into the well. So, just keep up with you, just Will not fall. "
"absolute?"
"absolute!"
"how do you know?"
"I know! Just know!" Trudi held my hand tightly and said. Then, I have been walking silently for a while. "That kind of thing I can know. Nothing, just feeling. I have been following you this evening. I am not afraid. No matter how bad, the dark thing is can't lure me!"
"Is that still not simple? You have been following me!" I said.
"Well - Are you really heart?"
"Of course, I'm really rid!"
Decons stopped and stopped. She put two hands on my shoulder, looked at my eyes from front. In her dark, a deep black liquid polygested a wonderful graph. This is a long time for such a beautiful scorpion. Then she picked up and gently put her cheek. This movement is great, and the teach people feel that the chest is tightened. "Thank you!" Said it.
"You're welcome!" I said.
"You can tell me those words, I am too high. Really!" She said while smiling while smiling. "However, it is impossible."
"why?"
"Because I can't do it! That's too much. That's -" The words suddenly swallowed back, and then continued to step. I know that there are too many ideas in her mind being turned around, so I don't open it, just walking silently.
"That is - wrong, it's all for you." For a long time, she said.
"How is a wrong method?" I asked with a calm voice.
"Because no one can protect another person forever! It is impossible. Listen, assume that I am married to you! Will you go to work? Who will protect me when you go to work? Can I follow you forever? Do you see this fair? Can this still call the interpersonal relationship? And one day you will definitely feel tired. My life is dry? When this woman's scales? You will be asked so much. I don't like this! I don't solve my problem at all! "
"I will never be greasy for a lifetime?" I said to her back. "Will I tell a paragraph? Wait until I have fallen, we have to re-consider it. How to do it in the future. Maybe it is said to help me with it! We need to stare at the pay and expenditure. If you I needed me now, you can use it well, isn't it? Why don't you get so stubborn? Relax it! If you are refused, you will become hard. Relax yourself, you will be comfortable. "
"Why do you say this?" The voice of the tonis heard it was terrible and indifferent. I felt that I seem to say my mistake.
"Why?" Tri stared at the ground. "Relaxing will feel comfortable, this, I know! You say what these words are used? Listen, if I am relaxing now, I will get rid of yourself! I am this set of lifestyles. I can only live like this! I just need to relax it once, I can't restore the original situation! I will get rid of it, then I can't understand it, even these you can't understand, what to protect me? "
I am silently.
"I have to be more complicated than what you think. I am covered, cold, complicated ... Why did you go to bed with me when you don't care about me?"
We stepped into a quiet pine forest. The trails were scattered on the talents died in the end of the summer, and dry itching. Stepping on the feet, I sent a 哩 啪. I and the straight child are looking for what is looking for, staring at the ground, while slowing on the path.
"Sorry!" True said, then gently holding my wrist, shaking his head. "I don't want to hurt you, don't care what I said. I am really sorry! I am just living myself."
"I think about it because I am still really understanding you!" I said. "I am not smart, I want to know something to take time. However, as long as I have time, I can understand you well, I can know you more than anyone."
We are standing there, listening to this tranquility. I took the wreck and pine branches and pine branches, looking up from the sky. Decons inserted two hands into the top of the jacket, can't move into meditation.
"Hey! Watanabe, do you like me?" "Of course!" I replied.
"Then can I worship you two things?"
"Three pieces can!"
The tri smiled and shook his head. "Two pieces can be. Two pieces are enough! The first one, I hope you understand, I am very grateful to meet me here. I am very high, it is, it is saved. Maybe you can't see it But this is a fact. "
"I will come again!" I said. "What is the other thing?"
"I hope that you will always remember me. Always remember this person, I used to be by your side."
"Of course I will remember forever." I replied.
She went to the front of himself. The autumn sun shining through the treetop, jumping on her shoulder. I have heard the dog, it seems to be closer to just now. Dior climbed with a hill-like slope, walked out of the pine forest, and quickly ran down. I followed her behind her, and three steps.
"It's coming here! The well is not there!" I shouted behind her. The tri is still standing, and a smile is gently grabbed my wrist. We will walk side by side.
"Do you really remember me?" She asked softly.
"Always remember," I said. "How did I forget?"
Despite this, this memory is indeed far away, I have forgotten too much. Like the present, while writing, I will often teach me into an uneasy emotion. Because I am worried that I may miss the most important memory. Maybe, this memory has long been in the dark "memory frontier" riochemical "memory frontier" in my body.
But in any case, now I have to write, it is all my memories. I am embracing this has been blurred, and it is increasingly blurred and incomplete memories, and the bones are marked, do this novel. In order to abide by the commitment to the tri, I don't have any other way in addition to this.
Previously, when I was still young, my memory was still clear, I have repeatedly trying to write a stallet. However, I can't write it at the time. I certainly understand that as long as I write a line of words, I can write her smoothly, but no matter how hard, the first line can't write it. Everything is so distinct, teach me, I don't know where it is. This is a lot of saying that a map is too detailed, sometimes it is the same. However, I have finally understood it now. It turns out - I think - - Only these incomplete memories, incomplete thoughts can wear novels in this incomplete container. Moreover, the memory of the descent is blurred in my mind, I can understand her. I also want to pass her now, I don't want to forget her. Different monters, of course, also known. She knows that one day, the memory in my brain will gradually fade. Therefore, she is not caught repeatedly.
"I hope that you will always remember me, always remember me this person."
I think so, I feel very sad. Because the crude child never loved me.
