The later days were very flat, I have also warned yourself, give up this emotion, but it is like a chronic disease, which is not fierce, but the torture is lasting.
Sometimes I think, maybe this is just a small episode in my life, like a fog, it is scattered in a wind. I have also tried to accept another boy, but I found me wrong. I can't forget him. Every day, it is still so eager to see him, or it is so obsessed with him.
When the big two fast holiday, the teacher gave us a homework, some of which should be completed online. Into the machine room, the first thing I think is to open the QQ number because Dawei is also on the Internet. Sure enough, he is online, but we didn't speak. For a long time, he suddenly asked me: Is the homework finished? I said no, very trouble, there will be no done.
"You will wait, I passed." Looking at the subtitles, I am really excited because he still cares about me.
After a while, Daxie came over. He smiled and asked me where I won't, then sit in front of the computer. After standing in him, looked at the back of his familiarity, my heartbeat was very powerful, and I really hope this moment will stay forever.
During the second summer vacation, I often go online, I hope to meet him, but every time I am disappointed. I gave him a message, gave him E-mail, but his reply seems to be very urgent, the heart is not awkward. After a few times, I was calm down, re-reviewing this emotion, recalling every detail between him and him. Suddenly, all this seems to be my own wish, my fantasy, after all, from beginning to end, he didn't explicitly express anything, everything is myself in fantasy. Maybe this is secret love, a painful single thought.
That day, I cried, I have never cryed like that. Later, I wrote a long memoir, and I did a lot of dollars. I am telling yourself: all this is over, I have to come back!
In the blink of a big three, because we have a strong professional practical practice, only three months of class, I have learned to practice. In this way, I graduated from a sway. During this time, I will occasionally think of him, but it is not the theme of my life. Later, I heard that he already had a girlfriend, it was the girl chasing him. However, what is the relationship with me? I have no mood to discuss, just say, I wish him happiness.
From the germination of feelings to the present, it has been more than three years. During this time, I really don't know how to express it. Maybe you can't get it is always the best, and I still think of him. I don't know where he is, what is it doing, how is it? But these are just boring, when you are quiet, you will appear during the night, I am still happy during the day, and I am happy, just like a little girl without any thought.
Sometimes I will self-comfort saying, this is good, because there is no result, this will be a beautiful memory, I will put this black boy forever in my heart. Sometimes I tell myself: Our character is similar, if it is really together, maybe it will be unhappy, don't. Sometimes I will think, if I want me to come back, I don't know if it will confess him? What will our ending don't know? But no matter how you think, how to comfort yourself, go to this step today, there is still a lot of regrets. However, if I really let me have come back, tell the truth, I don't dare to be this ending, because this is my character, I am such a person: a passive, tradition, stubborn, not Real, be good at waiting, but will never make your own girl. Reporter
People often say: Character determines fate. When I heard this sentence, I felt that it was a kind of fatalism, but now I feel more and more. Of course, there is a love, but also a big head. A person is facing the attitude, method and attitude, method and attitude of love, and undoubtedly in the own character. So, we seem to say this: Character decides love. Unless you can change yourself from your bones. In fact, I have always envied those who dare to love hate, and happy. If it is destined, it is better to burn.
