I am awakening, I feel some tired.
I did a dream last night, a regret, I dreamed of her, she was red. The general plot of the dream is like this: I and the other two male students have red to go to a place, my relationship with the red is very good, the two students are also interesting to the red, but I am in two students, Never dare to reverse red clips. Even if the red is hint, even in the behavior is close to me, I have been stupid. It is very hypocritical. I don't think about it. "Resist" she, in fact, how much I want to be with her. During the time, we have to take a boat, we have already got a boat, I thought: If the two students (at the time, they were still sleeping), I can't help this boat, I have the opportunity to Red table is white. The fact is as expected, only we have two boats, and the red does not mention them. But when the ship is about to start, I hesitate: How can I lose my classmates, never do it, absolutely can't do this. So I rushed to ask them, but they are not as positive as I imagined. When I find them back, the ship has already opened it, and the red is always gone, and no one knows. At that time, my heart was broken, and the two students were blamed, I didn't call them early, I woke up when I was angry.
I am actually such a person, I don't brave in love, and I value the feelings between my friends and my friends. Although this is just a dream, I don't have actually experienced the plot, but the feeling he brought to me is that I am practical in my heart.
Red is my secondary school class. She is my same table in the first two years. After two years, the other is another female girl. She is clipped in me and red middle, which is very annoying, and many things to do are not like one. Girl should do. And the red is different. She is also perfect in my heart, she is cheerful, her generous, beautiful and easy to close, people are also very simple, and my wearing eyelashes, the same table, simple - simplicity - Don't mention it.
In fact, these are not the most important, the most important thing is that the red people are very good. Although she often became the 妒 objects of other female students in the class, she and every relationship between each classmate is very good, this may be her ability.
We are all accommodation, usually only bring some fruits from home to school. I remember that she gave me an orange left by him, I didn't want it. I happened that a classmate has passed, and the orange is going. She was very angry at the time, in fact, I just want to let her eat, there is nothing else. From that day, I talk to her, she always ignored me, I am very tallful, I know that she is not really hate me, but a kind of kindness. Every time we meet each other, we will talk to me later until a week. That day we said a lot, she told me that he was very awkward these days, and each time I met each other, she didn't get it. So, since then, we will not let the other party angry before, until five years later.
Another time we got rice in the cafeteria, suddenly in the outside, she took a umbrella at the time. She finished the meal than I first, but she didn't leave. I asked her why she didn't go?
She said: "You don't have an umbrella, I am waiting for you to go back."
"You will go first, don't worry about me, I will pay for a while."
"It doesn't matter, you have a good time."
There are many people who have gone today, and the canteen has been forced to have a meal, and I have been waiting for half an hour, but she has been waiting for me in the silently, her meal is cold. I advised her a few times, she didn't go, until I finished, we went back together. At that time, I was very moving, I really hope that we can walk under this umbrella. I admit that I am not a brave person, I like red, but I don't dare to express her. And when I was joking with our relationship, I was even more bold, and even sometimes she was avoided. Now I think it is too stupid that I am too stupid. I always think about others. I always consider the views of others. I am afraid that others say, it is better to say that I feel inferior. I gave yourself a reasonable reason: I am still at school, I am the best in the class, I am a three-life, I can't fall in love. So I buried this feeling, I told myself, waiting for our graduation, I can talk about marriage, I will definitely go to the red clock.
When I changed the seat in the third grade, a female classmate in the class requests the teacher to do the same table with me, she is Hui. So she clipped in me and red. Since then, I will say less in my heart. She is a very annoying girl. I and red as long as she joined her mouth or rushed to talk, so that our time was greatly reduced, I really don't know what she is, she evens Always wrapped in red. I and red are people who are very featuring in the class, because our temper is very good, very tone, so around us around. Red and I said, she doesn't like the girl, but it is very helpless. Sometimes I think, is it too easy to follow, so that it is easy to passively disturb the surrounding environment to us.
That time, my relationship with red is a bit alienated, mainly because our exchange is less.
The third semester of the third grade.
One day, red, I said that I was sitting at night, I have something to tell you, I am particularly happy, I haven't been talking well for a long time, but I didn't think of it, it is my most sad evening. .
When the red door, I said to me: "Jian, if I have an object now (boyfriend will be engaged) Do you think I am going to get crowned? Will I be a good friend?"
"How can you? You will always be my friend." I am eager to know the back of the content.
"I only tell you this thing, don't tell others!"
"Don't worry, what is it?"
"I have an object, it is my middle school classmate, and my same table."
"Well!?" When I heard this, I was on time, and I didn't know how I replied.
"His sister is very good, is his sister to help him say. And, my parents also agreed, because my father and his father worked together, is the best friend. We The two are very understanding, the lives are not far away, when I go to school, he also takes care of me ............ "
After she is behind, I really can't hear it. I just think about how to cover up my emotions, but I have never dared to express my feelings about her, maybe I have already desperate. Because I am a person who has never loved and compete for others, this is also true in this. I think, since the red is willing to make friends with that person, explain that she has feelings for him, and that person and red are the same table in the three years of middle school, and must have certain feelings. Maybe there is everything you do to me before, just treat me as a good friend, now she just tells me that I may be alone, I am too kind.
I was insomnia that night, I woke up the next day, I doubt that yesterday's a dream. It is clever that day we practice email, so I gave the red-haired email, I asked her a dream last night, she replied: "It is true!". That class, I have been gotting, and when I was in self-study, we sat together, I asked her with a unwilling mood half-joke: "If you learn the same time with you, I will present you. Do you agree? "She thought for a while, she said seriously:" Maybe it will. "I couldn't help but get out of mouth:" Meet the night! ", She also repeated this sentence. I think she may detect my thoughts, but what can she still? Later, he seems to be not so close. I don't know if this is my heart, even if it is not, I can understand her. Our academic is 4 years, but the summer vacation in the third year is recommended for a good job, so there is no such thing as a day in the fourth year.
After graduating from school, we will only meet at a meeting every year. Our words are not a lot, I don't know what happened, it seems that there is a gap between us, this dividend requires us to pave with each other, maybe only then, when we do not sensitive to each other, More honest communication.
Quote someone else's words, come comfort yourself:
I lost people who didn't love me, but you lost people who love you, so I didn't lose!
There is such a line in "My Barbarian Girlfriend", which makes me impressed: if you really love him, don't care about her and who is together, as long as she is happy. This is called true love!
Red, sincere bless you, bless you find you loved and love you, I wish you happiness forever! !
